At the Crossroads of My Alcoholism
He had reached that place where he couldn't imagine life with alcohol, nor life without it
"I had given up on life and couldn't comprehend living and still drinking."
In March of 2007, I finally surrendered and knew that my life could never be the same. I realized I could no longer control my drinking, or deny the fact that my life was a train wreck.
I was totally hopeless. I had given up on life and couldn't comprehend living and still drinking, let alone life without my only friend, alcohol. The blackouts, rage and consequent arrests were coming in more rapid succession. I was certainly beyond human understanding or aid and after being released from my latest arrest, I found myself walking on a snowy highway before dawn. I was hoping a tractor...
-- Gary C.
Woodstown, New Jersey
A sudden flutter of butterflies provides this AA with a glimpse of the presence of his higher power
The Birdsong in Prison
A sober inmate hears in the birdsong the sounds of what it used to be like and what it's like now
Living Rough on the Riverbank
A homeless alcoholic, he didn't believe in God until one morning when he heard from his higher power
He was adrift from himself and the promise of his early life until he found the safe harbor of AA