He was adrift from himself and the promise of his early life until he found the safe harbor of AA
"As the years went by, I drifted further away from God on a black sea of loneliness. "
Some of my earliest childhood memories are of my mother, a Sunday school teacher, dragging me to church kicking and screaming. I didn't care much for these attempts to introduce me to God. I just wanted to hang out with the other kids and play. When I was old enough to make my own decisions, the trips to church ended, but not before I had adopted a basic set of values, which included my sense of right and wrong. Later in life, this would serve as the measure of my insanity.
A sudden flutter of butterflies provides this AA with a glimpse of the presence of his higher power
The Birdsong in Prison
A sober inmate hears in the birdsong the sounds of what it used to be like and what it's like now
Living Rough on the Riverbank
A homeless alcoholic, he didn't believe in God until one morning when he heard from his higher power
At the Crossroads of My Alcoholism
He had reached that place where he couldn't imagine life with alcohol, nor life without it