From the September 2011 magazine.

September 2011: Game Over

The blame game ended when her husband took his life

"I resented him and his drinking, thinking all our problems were the result of it."

When he was 34, my alcoholic husband committed suicide on our wedding anniversary. He had decided that our family would be better off without him.

In the 13 years we were married, I’d become familiar with a life that revolved around alcohol and drug use. I never drank as much as he did, but I was using drugs. Financial instability, verbal and physical abuse, infidelities and sporadic threats of suicide plagued our chaotic marriage. He spent many late nights at the bar, and sometimes wouldn’t even come home. Desperate phone calls would either go unanswered or were responded to with appeasing lies.

-- Debbie M.

Florence, Oregon

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