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Web Exclusive: A Spiritual Sickness
In order to get sober, this AA felt he had to develop a new conception of god
Religion seemed more about traditions and I never really had much interest in it.
Growing up in an Hispanic and Catholic home, religion was always more about traditions and family gatherings. I never really had much interest in any of it to begin with. I knew that Jesus was the son of God, that there was a Holy Spirit, and the big Jesus who hid behind the bright clouds.
It was all a joke to me. Coming to AA and finding a god who I can worship, or believe in, was almost impossible for me to come to terms with. I'm the type of alcoholic who manages to stay sober for a little while and goes back out for another binge. In my experience, it is very hard to come back...
-- Eduardo C.S.
San Jose, California