Grapevine Online Exclusive

Published September 2011.

Web Exclusive: A Spiritual Sickness

In order to get sober, this AA felt he had to develop a new conception of god

Religion seemed more about traditions and I never really had much interest in it.

Growing up in an Hispanic and Catholic home, religion was always more about traditions and family gatherings. I never really had much interest in any of it to begin with. I knew that Jesus was the son of God, that there was a Holy Spirit, and the big Jesus who hid behind the bright clouds.

It was all a joke to me. Coming to AA and finding a god who I can worship, or believe in, was almost impossible for me to come to terms with. I'm the type of alcoholic who manages to stay sober for a little while and goes back out for another binge. In my experience, it is very hard to come back once you leave.

-- Eduardo C.S.

San Jose, California

This is a preview. To view the full article, use the link below to begin a free 7-day trial!

Related Items:

Playing God

A Daily Meditation

The Conscious Contact Group

My Brother, My Keeper