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Published November 2011.

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When she realized that doing the Steps was not a competition, she was able to move forward

"I had been treating the Steps like I was playing a board game and whomever got to the end first would win."

My name is Mary Lou and I am an alcoholic. I have been sober 32 years, which can be considered a long time, even old timer status. I frequently listen to the newcomer in AA and can truly feel those feelings, understand those fears and thoughts that occur in early recovery from alcoholism. In my own life, situations regularly occur that bring me back to the first step and keep me practicing the principles of AA in daily life. In my early days of sobriety, I didn't think too much about the Steps.

I was confused, unable to sleep, and continuously panic stricken. I remember certain...

-- Mary Lou

Buffalo, New York

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