From the December 2011 magazine.

It Was All About Me

AA taught him not to take himself so seriously

From as far back as I can remember my life had been all about me! As a child, I was constantly worrying about what you thought of me, how I looked, how I carried myself. I feared that you could sense my fear of life. Fear permeated my life for many, many years to come, long into my sobriety. It was the foundation of my alcoholism. Without alcohol, I often wonder how I would have survived those times. Alcohol gave me the courage, false or not, to make my way through life. I have heard it said that AA guides us back into the mainstream but I was never in the mainstream to begin with. I never lived life until I reached AA, I only watched life go by.

My last drink was on September 12, 1976 and the obsession for alcohol left me sometime in 1978. I am so grateful to be free of that obsession. I don't really know what constitutes a good AA program or a bad one. The only one I've had experience with is my own, which for many, might be a rough way to stay sober. To me, the only purpose for time sober is the experience gained that can help us stay sober through all the good times and bad.

-- Don Mc.

Standish, Maine

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