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Published January 2012.

Web Exclusive: Someone to Watch Over Me

A member considers the vulnerability of young people in the rooms

I came into my first AA meeting on Sept 13, 1980. I was an 89-pound woman and had just turned 17 years old. I have been sober since that day. Recently, a group of old-timers in my area have formally met to discuss safety issues for young people in Alcoholics Anonymous.

Coming into my first AA meeting, I looked and acted as if I was considerably older than my chronological age. I felt dark and old inside as well. If I had been asked at that time, I would have sworn on my life that I could protect myself in any given situation. My sharp sixth sense had always served me well. Yet, instead, what happened was very predictable. I gravitated towards the older men I met in meetings. Yes, nice sober women approached me too … but who needs them? I was young, attractive, and without my alcohol. I wanted to have fun and feel excitement again. (See page 88 of the Big Book—excitement is lumped in with fear, anger, worry, self-pity and foolish decisions!).

-- Christina N.

Carlsbad, California

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