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Published January 2012.

Out of the Whirlwind

Her life became filled with chaos as soon as she picked up a drink and until she put it back down

I had been sober for 21 months, and my life had gotten really good. Through the blessing of a good sponsor and the Steps, I was able to start letting go of old resentments and pains and started liking myself. My family was starting to believe in me. I got married, bought a house and got pregnant all in March, my one-year AA anniversary. I had everything I thought I wanted.

My life got good so I allowed AA to fit into it when it was convenient. Then I got too good for AA. I started judging the people and the meeting rooms and my world got smaller. I had a lot of ego so there wasn't much room for God and my world got smaller. I got too busy for service and meetings and the phone and my world was real small.

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