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The Door of My Soul

A Young AA lost herself to alcohol but AA proved to be the key

I have been struggling for so long, trying to just figure out how to be happy—happy with me and happy with life. Always trying on the wrong shoes and being disappointed. I let by myself down and others. I picked up alcohol, which led to the picking up of many other mind-altering, soul-distorting substances, and an obsession with sex and male-attention, and a confusion as to where I fit in.

In all of it, I lost the most important thing—myself.

Four and a half months into sobriety and desperately trying to figure out how to work the AA program to suit me, I was running into... Login to read more
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