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Published December 2013.

As the World Turns

Despite many talents and opportunities, she became a "stay-at-home" drunk and watched life pass her by

When I first came to AA in my 20s, I had doubts whether I was a real alcoholic. I had some evidence my drinking had become a problem, but I hadn't gotten into any legal trouble. My own personal diagnosis was: no arrests meant I was not an alcoholic.

And with that proclamation, I said goodbye to AA and stayed drunk for years. The more I convinced myself I wasn't an alcoholic, the more I drank. That seems completely senseless, but now I see it as part of the insidious nature of alcoholism.

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