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Published December 2013.

The Dreams I Dreamt

A member reflects on the things alcohol took away and that sobriety restored

"When I was a child, I spoke as a child. I dreamed as a child but when I became a man, I put away childish dreams."

All that said, it would have been nice if I had ever grown up. Somewhere between my dreams came alcohol. It distorted everything and turned life into one mishap after another. My dreams turned into nightmares and a series of drowned hopes.

I thought that alcohol allowed me to be who I wanted to be and and live my dreams. In reality, I was alone in a world filled with meaningless affairs, superficial friendships and lost dreams.

The things I had...

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