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Published December 2013.

To Live

After multiple relapses, she hit bottom once and for all

I grew up in the beautiful state of Colorado. My childhood was good and I was given an abundance of opportunities. I had goals, dreams and aspirations for my life and looked to the future with excitement. My dad was an engineer, my mom was a homemaker and I have one older brother. I was raised in the church and we went regularly.

I turned away from what I was taught and started directing my own life around the time that I discovered alcohol. Alcohol was not allowed in our house because of my parents' beliefs but more importantly because alcoholism runs throughout both sides of our extended family. I knew it was in the genes but I didn't understand what it meant to be alcoholic until I lived it. I never believed that this could happen to me.

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