February 2014: My Own Private Hell
He couldn't stop and he was drinking mouthwash, until AA gave him the key to get free
I was a heavy drinker from an early age. So I came into AA at 16, fresh from a recovery home. After that, I went in and out until I was 40 years old.
Like many who relapse, I was not ready to let go of the idea that I could control my own life. I long knew that I was a classic case, but I would never submit to the AA way of life. I thought myself to be a smart, logical person, and I was sure that to relinquish my own way of doing things would make me, as the literature says, a hole in a doughnut.