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Published January 2014.

Stumbling Blocks

The intellectual debate inside his head kept him drinking

When I first got to AA, I was clueless. All of the AA sayings and jargon seemed to simplify what I thought to be a complicated situation. But I came to AA ready to learn.

Group members told me that it wasn't necessary to turn this into an academic thing. But when I saw that there were meetings called "Big Book Studys," I was sure they were lying to me. It had been my badge of honor to be an intellectual.

All throughout my school years, I was in advanced classes and was at the head of my class. While I didn't fit in most of the time, I received attention and admiration because...

-- Stephan M.

Tracy, California

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