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Off the Merry-Go-Round

After a series of interventions she agreed to go to detox

At the age of 16, I started sneaking around and buying beer. I would beg for it and steal change to buy it. I wanted beer every day and I would do whatever it took to get it. I loved it so much that I lost my dignity, my self-respect, and all of my friends. No one wanted to be around a drunk or be bothered with me. My reaction to this was to just go somewhere and hide out from everyone. I had no idea that this was known as isolation.

I was the kind of drunk who liked to get drunk, curse you out, and disrespect you and your children. I was loud, boisterous and even sometimes violent.... Login to read more
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