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Published January 2014.

The Question of When

It wasn't clear when he crossed that line and maybe it doesn't matter

When the time came to tell family and friends that I was seeking help for my alcoholism and was attending daily AA meetings, I was vexed by the simple yet complicated question of "When?"

People would often ask, "When did you know that you were an alcoholic?" My typical response was, "I have no idea." If they still had a searching look on their face, I might rapid-fire a few particularly bad memories.

"Maybe it was when I was fired from my job for passing out in my car during lunch." Or maybe it was when I started drinking at 6 a.m. so I could get in two solid hours of boozing...

-- Todd H.

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