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Fitting In

She realized that she wasn't that different from everyone else and that she was at home in any AA meeting

I started self-medicating at an early age. By the time I graduated from high school, I knew I had a problem, though I drank for another four decades. For years, I lied to myself thinking that I had no fears, when in reality, fear was eating me up alive from the inside out. I became frozen and unable to learn, or even function in the world.

I drank to escape the horrible thoughts I had whenever I was sober. Drinking released me from the suffocating fears, the feelings of inadequacy, and the nagging voices in my head that told me I would never measure up. It didn't take long until I... Login to read more
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