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Published April 2014.

Letting Go of the Golden Glow

Alcohol covered up a lot of his inner conflict but left wreckage in its wake. Sobriety enabled him to live a different life

Last Christmas Eve was the fortieth anniversary of my coming out as the gay man I always was but could never allow myself to be because of shame and guilt over what I thought was the most perverse of perversions. My coming out was a gift of sobriety and occurred a little more than two years after I made a decision, at my first meeting, to try this thing called one-day-at-a-time sobriety. That end to daily drinking, which I have maintained ever since through the grace of God, was my first gift from God and Alcoholics Anonymous.

I was raised to believe that men loved women and you had...

-- Jerry F.

Cerritos, California

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