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To See the Moon and Stars

She thought God had abandoned her when she went to prison. But that was the beginning of her sobriety

I truly did not believe that I could ever get and stay sober for any length of time. I was convinced that I fell into the "constitutionally incapable of being honest" group. I had tried many times since 2003, to get sober, but failed miserably. Why? Well, because I drank. Also, I struggled with believing in God so I could never get past the First Step.

I knew my life was a mess, and that I was supposed to stop drinking, but I could not figure out how to find this "God of my understanding." I tried but was not able to feel any connection. I worked with a sponsor, talked to a priest,... Login to read more
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