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Published July 2014.

A Cold January Night

The night that he tried to end his life would wind up being the night his life began again

It was a cold wet dreary January night in 1990. I was spiritually, emotionally, physically and financially bankrupt. I no longer could live with or without alcohol. Although my alcoholism had kept me from visiting my mother in the hospital, it didn't keep me from buying more alcohol. It ran every aspect of my life.

I sat in my childhood bedroom after coming off another five or six day bender. I contemplated every lost promotion, relationship and car accident that my alcoholism had caused, knowing there was no way out, knowing that my disease had won.

-- Gary G.

New Jersey

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