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The Broken Chain

For this alcoholic, obsessing about the past was as lethal as a drink

Going back through my past was a daunting task. After several months of fighting it, it came down to picking up a drink, or picking up a pen.

As I began writing, I could see that I was just as chained to my past as I had been to the alcohol that kept me there. If I were to have any kind of peace, serenity and freedom, I would have to look back. As I did, I found that God had always done for me what I couldn't do for myself. That was true even when my back was turned to him.

When I reviewed all the events in my past, I concluded that I probably shouldn't even still be here... Login to read more
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