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Published November 2014.

Eyes on the Horizon

Confronted with loss and mourning, he went back to AA after a long time away

I could see age 70 on the distant horizon. I was soon eligible for a 30-year medallion even though my meeting schedule had fallen from dismal to nonexistent. My daily meditations and readings were also sporadic. M spirituality and connection to the God of my understanding had waned, though I didn't really see it.

My wife of almost 45 years had 33 years of sobriety, and was suffering with COPD. She had to be on continuous oxygen therapy. Her health was deteriorating and I was becoming more and more involved in caring for her at home. I justified skipping meetings and reducing AA contacts.

-- Larry A.

Andrews, North Carolina

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