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Published November 2014.

"I Like the Effect"

An old timer looks back on life before and after she came to AA as a young woman

Growing up, I always felt out of place, like I just didn't fit. But with the first drink or the first drug, I thought, "Ah, the answer to all of my problems."

Never mind that I threw up every single time I drank. That did not discourage me. I stayed drunk and high every single day for 11 years. It stopped working after about eight years, but I couldn't stand being sober, and I didn't know what else to do.

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