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At the Crossroads

After 18 months sober, he realized that he was responsible

From my earliest recollection I had a dependence on others to meet my needs in life, including the need to belong and the need to be loved.

I sought out affirmation and comfort from my teachers, my peers, and often from people I didn't even know long before I took my first drink. Around the age of 17 I discovered alcohol could fulfill my needs better than anything else; a false belief. In reality my drinking, from day one, simply sent me chasing after different groups of people, places, and things that I believed would bring me happiness.

My dependence on others was fed by a... Login to read more
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