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Published April 2015.

The Pink and the Bubbly

Alcohol made her feel happy and fun when she was a schoolgirl trying to fit in, but it didn't last

I started drinking in my late teens. Everyone I hung around with, including my brothers and sisters, drank but it was mostly a weekend or party thing. I remember my first drink of a pink and bubbly wine while camping with girlfriends. Even though I called them friends, I never really felt good enough to be their friend. A lot of the time, I pretended that everything was OK but it wasn't.

After I had a glass or two, I felt pink and bubbly myself. And happy. I was having fun. The wine blocked out my low self-esteem and fears. I felt comfortable with these girls.

-- Judy H.

Halifax, Nova Scotia, Canada

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