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From the November 2012 magazine.

November 2012: Why Me?

"Why me?” Before I got sober almost 13 years ago, I used to ask myself this question all the time. It usually started a series of days with me on my pity pot feeling sorry for myself. “Life is not fair” was the only response I heard from my Employee Assistance Program some 15 years ago. I met my EAP counselor again at an AA convention a few years
later. Imagine that! Now
after being in AA and working the Steps, I have a new perspective.

Recently I was given the opportunity to “be there” for my younger brother, Casey, while his girlfriend, Gloria, was dying of cirrhosis. I had accepted Casey back into my life almost two years ago, when he called me crying that he, himself, had cirrhosis. I was able to look at him with a new perspective and love him unconditionally as a result of working my AA program. I let go of my resentments and judgments and practiced acceptance to the best of my ability. Some days were challenging but I never gave up. Most of our family shuns him. Yes, it would have been the perfect time in their eyes to shove AA down his throat. But instead, we both looked up cirrhosis on the computer and educated ourselves. He told me it was too late for him, and he wasn’t going to stop drinking. Again, I practiced acceptance and told him I would always be there for him. Life went on.

-- —Katie C.

West Palm Beach, Florida

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