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From the December 2012 magazine.

December 2012: Cracked Pipes

A post-holiday emergency knocked her right off her pink cloud

I was feeling pretty good in my early “pink cloud” days of sobriety. Recovery seemed to be coming easy to me. After all, my compulsion to drink was lifted the first day I came into a meeting. I started working with a great sponsor right away and fell into a pattern of starting my day at an early bird AA meeting. I was also trying prayer. I woke up feeling alive and clear each morning and felt saner with each passing day. People kept telling me I was doing great. I felt that I had finally found the answer and was doing really well at this AA thing.

Then, about two months into recovery, all those good feelings disappeared in a flash, and I took a hard fall off my cloud. I’d thought the irrational anger that had been such a part of me when I was drinking was gone, along with the urge to drink. But it all came roaring back.

-- Anonymous

Charlottesville, Virginia

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