From the December 2012 magazine.

December 2012: Let's be frank

Comforting words from a school principal helped this newcomer relax

By the time I made it to my first meeting I was already four months without alcohol. Those were the most miserable four months of my life. Fear was the one and only thing keeping me from drinking. Fear of losing my job, fear of losing my daughter, fear of losing my freedom, fear of losing my life. Suicide was looming, and I was at the edge.

I never intended on sobriety, but a second drunk driving offense made me wonder if I had a problem. I tried to convince myself I didn’t have a problem because my first arrest was ten years prior. That belief made less sense after I had been without alcohol for a few days. The fight to not drink was overwhelming. By day five, I couldn’t take it any longer. I had reached the jumping off point. I was given what many call “the gift of desperation.” So I picked up the phone and called my doctor’s office. I whispered into the phone, “I can’t live with myself anymore and suicide is an option.” For the first time in my history with this doctor I was told to come in right away.

-- Dee C.,

Muskegon, Michigan

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