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With Everything to Lose

Upon a sponsor's suggestion, he made a list of what drinking would take from him

If I picked up again, this is what I think I would get back and what I would lose again:

• First, the tremors would return.
• Next would come the panic attacks.
• I'd probably drive while under the influence as I had done.
• My relationships with those who helped me get sober including my dear mother. I know she would feel so betrayed, hurt, and sad.
• My wonderful partner of 35 years who also suffered in many ways during my drinking.
• Even if they didn't know about it, I would feel bad about the people who treated me in the psychiatric... Login to read more
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