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Relief from the Storm

After she landed in the hospital, she took the First Step

I can’t recall the pivotal moment when I crossed the threshold from being a “normal” drinker to an alcoholic one, but I do recall my first drink with perfect clarity. By middle school I began to feel quite different from the other kids. While other girls my age were forging alliances that would last them for years to come, I wandered aimlessly on the outskirts of the social circles. My inability to find a place among any such groups caused intense feelings of inadequacy and resentment which in turn mutated into full-throttle angst and depression.

At age fourteen, I began to seek escape from the way that I felt inside, that is when I found alcohol. From the very first drink, I loved the way it granted relief from the storm swells in my head. It was like the magic elixirs described in the fables I heard as a child.

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