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Starry, Starry Night

Through the years of alcoholism and into sobriety, he held onto an image that filled him with the awesome sense of the spiritual world

In Chapter Four of the Big Book, "We Agnostics," it says "…we found ourselves thinking, when enchanted by a starlit night, 'Who, then, made all this ?' There was a feeling of awe and wonder, but it was fleeting and soon lost." When I read this, I thought it described me exactly in 1969. For part of my tour in Vietnam I was a helicopter crew member. I was addicted to booze by the time I was drafted, and now I loved all the powerful pot and opium we smoked daily.

The war was pretty hot at that time. We flew eight to 16 hours a day, flying all kinds of missions: medivac, supply, resupply, as well as transporting troops under all kinds of conditions, many times under fire. It was dangerous and exhausting work with many close calls from ground fire, mechanical problems and human errors.

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