From the April 2017 magazine.

Deep cleaning

How several years of self-examination and inventories gave her peace and set her free to help others

Most of us know that without a profound personality change, we cannot achieve sobriety or a connection to a Higher Power. I sought that profound personality change from alcohol. I always wanted to be someone other than me. Early on, I found that alcohol worked. I felt smarter, prettier, more sociable and less fearful. You all know the story.

Then, of course, the thing that worked for me began to own me. My desire for change morphed into a dependence to maintain some semblance of “normal.” My car seemed to drive itself to the liquor store, even when I’d promised myself earlier in the morning that I wasn’t going to drink
that day.

-- Ann F.

Rochester, New York, USA

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