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Secret Lives

She used to tell strangers in bars her life story. Step Five helped her get over the shame of that.

Besides drinking too much, I suppose there was a small part of me that figured my secretive life and how I felt about myself was also part of my problem. How else would you explain me being drunk on the barstool telling a complete stranger all my stuff? It was becoming unbearable to hold it in anymore. Strangely enough, I did feel some actual relief; until the next morning.

I would wake up, trying to piece together the previous night, and remember telling the friendly older gentleman my "story," praying to never run into him again. I didn't know it at that time, but I had already been practicing for my Fifth Step! The only problem with it was, I was drunk, it wasn't honest and the pain would soon creep back into my head.

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