May 2011: Legal Aid
From the May 2011 Grapevine magazine
I was even willing to follow suggestions and go to a weekly meeting of lawyers and judges in recovery.
I thought about alcohol all the time, beginning each morning, when I’d curse myself for getting drunk the night before. My hangover was usually crushing and it took great effort to look refreshed and cheerful so my wife wouldn’t know I had gotten drunk, again.
The hangover persisted as I struggled to get through a court appearance or a meeting at my law firm, as did feelings of shame, guilt, demoralization and helplessness at being unable to control my alcohol consumption. I was terrified somebody would discover I was a drunk.
Around lunchtime, my head had usually cleared...
-- Rick B.