May 2011: Caught on Tape
From the May 2011 Grapevine magazine
He couldn’t believe the belligerent monster on the TV screen was him
There in front of me on the TV screen, was a complete and utter monster, a Jekyll and Hyde.
Your first AA meeting can be a scary place. You’re not only unsure about yourself and your reasons for being there, but you’re also overwhelmed with fear and doubt that the program actually works. You hear stories from individuals who’ve obtained significant amounts of sobriety time and have a sense of peace that you don’t quite understand. You wonder how long it’s going to take for you to obtain that same peace. Well, I was no different than you. Those very same thoughts haunted me. I was so terrified and overwhelmed, I almost gave up at the thought of trying.