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The little voice in my head

The help he got from Steps Six and Seven brought him right back around to Step Two.

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For as long as I can remember, I’ve had this little voice in my head saying, “Wouldn’t a drink be nice?” For 42 years that voice was my constant companion, my friend, as well as my worst enemy. I always listened to it, and the answer, of course, was always yes.

I went to six different treatment centers as well as numerous detoxes during those 42 years. I’ve had several failed marriages and changed careers more times than I can count. I consider myself a fairly intelligent guy, college educated with an emphasis on science, and I’ve never really believed in a God or any kind of Higher Power. Deep down, for as long as I can remember, I’ve known I was an alcoholic. But for much of my drinking years, my life had been manageable. Then it wasn’t.

Olympia, Washington

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