From the March 2019 magazine.

Just like my father

No matter how hard she tried, she became the very thing she said she never would

My father was an alcoholic. I still remember the day when I was 16 and I happened to find a copy of the Big Book on our shelf at home. I flipped the book open. I read, “Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic,” along with a handwritten note from my stepmother pleading for AA’s help. I slammed the book shut and told myself I’d never be like my father, and back to drinking I went.

I had my first drink at 12 and I loved it. Four of us girls sat in a circle and guzzled a gallon of wine in minutes. It was electric. I loved to drink and drank to live. I’ve heard many women say in meetings that they finally became the woman they always wanted to be. I had no vision for what they meant when they said that because from my first drink I had one obsession: drinking. 

-- Laura M.

Melbourne, Florida

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