From the May 2019 magazine.

The bright side

She no longer escapes in dark, dingy bars. She’s found her place in the sun

During my drinking days, my favorite places were dark bars, the darker the better. There was something about a dimly lit pub that appealed to me. That used to be a running joke with my drinking buddies. They would suggest a place to meet and I would say, “Oh, that’s too bright.” We’d laugh, but there was some truth to it. 

Open, airy places made me feel exposed, and I didn’t want to be seen. I wanted to hunker down in a dingy booth and meld into nothingness. In a murky tavern, I could be anyone. I could even be someone else if I wanted. My all-time favorite bar was a tiny dive with a low ceiling, about six tables and a popcorn machine. That was it, no food, no frills.

-- Eileen K.

Springfield, Illinois

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