From the January 2020 magazine.

Borrow mine

I said “Jim, maybe you could use my Higher Power.” I told him I was sure he wouldn’t mind. Jim thanked me and we never spoke of the God thing again.

When I came into AA, I was spiritually bankrupt. Due to years of heavy drinking and a series of life experiences, I was depleted of any belief system. By the time I was 17, I had lost six people in my family to death: my father when I was 8, my sister when I was 9, my mother when I was 14, my grandfather and my step-grandfather when I was 17. I also had a very close friend die when I was 17. As far as I could tell, I didn’t think God was loving and on my side in life.

I got sober in 1985 at the Coral Room in Miami. They didn’t care about my wonderful theory of evolution; they simply told me to get on my knees and pray. I had this AA friend named Jim with about three years sober, and the two of us would sit and debate the God thing. Now Jim was a scientist and we both had these wonderful theories on evolution. Oh, we had great ideas and thought the God thing was good for you AAers, but we were sure that we would have to find some other resource to keep us sober. 

-- M.L.

Placitas, N.M.

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