From the January 2020 magazine.

Refusing to Pray

At 27 years, she hit a rough patch with her Higher Power, but picked up a pen and found a way to keep talking

When I first came to AA, I was agnostic and very skeptical of prayer. I didn’t have much use for a God, if there even was one. I thought prayer was a form of self-delusion. 

But I heard people talk in meetings about the power of prayer and how it was a working part of their recovery. I decided to conduct a scientific experiment to prove to myself (and everyone else) that prayer didn’t work. Instead, I proved to myself that it did work, even when I didn’t think it would. 

-- Nancy C.

Cincinnati, Ohio

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