January 2011: The Imperfectionist
From the January 2011 Grapevine Magazine
Surrendering to the moment brings personal victory
It took a lot of practice and redirection to know truly that I am in charge of nothing and I better live that way if I want to stay sober.
When I first came through these doors, I was defeated; totally ready to do what was necessary to stay sober. I didn’t know that I was a child mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I just knew that I was an uncontrolled drinker who had made a mess of her life. AA was the last recourse. I had dabbled in Al-Anon and also in Adult Children of Alcoholics. It was so nice to blame problems on parents, environment and genetics.
About six months into sobriety and Step Three, I made a decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God as I understood him. That seemed pretty...