February 2011: To be (or not to be) gay in AA
From the February 2011 Grapevine Magazine
"I said to God, in all honesty and sincerity, that if he didn’t want me to be gay, then I would change."
When I first came into AA, I was openly gay, and had been for many years. I was troubled, however, by my behavior in relationships. My drinking had created many problems for me. At age 32, I had already been in two long-term relationships that ended badly due to alcohol and drugs (my use and theirs.)
At about five months sober, I was having a bad day. I was feeling restless, irritable and discontent. I was especially unhappy over the state of my relationships and sexuality, and I was feeling different than, and less than, others. I also wanted to stay sober no matter what. Dating...
-- Mike H.