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Other Lives, Other Paths

After accepting God's will for her, she found the joy of living

When I first got sober, I didn't think that I had hit much of a bottom. I was 34 and recently divorced, but at the time I didn't consider the divorce a consequence of my drinking. I knew that I was emotionally a mess, but I had a great job and was progressing in my career. I had plenty of money, a nice car, and I was physically in shape. The realization of the extent of my losses from drinking didn't come until later. It was only later that I understood what a full life really looked like.

During my first marriage I had steadfastly maintained that I didn't want to have children. My husband at the time exerted pressure on me to have children, but I really wanted to have a career and did not want to be defined by my child-bearing ability. I initiated the divorce and afterward, I felt free. Free, it turned out, to hit my bottom about a year later.

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