Grapevine Online Exclusive

A Bunch of Weirdos

He didn't want what they had until he really needed their help

I did not want to be an alcoholic. I wasn't an alcoholic. I did not want to go to "those meetings". Nobody was going to understand me, and there was no way that I was going to relate to anybody. I could take care of myself, and I was smart enough to figure it out. My problem was my ex-wife. Oh yeah, and also my lack of employment. I sold my house because I wanted to, not because of my drinking. I just needed some time to get it all back.

These were the thoughts that ran through my head as I walked towards the door of an AA meeting. Even though I kept telling myself that I would be all right, and that I had everything under control, I kept walking towards the door. After the internal battle went on inside my head, I asked myself one final question before crossing the threshold, "How did this happen?"

This is a preview. To view the full article, use the link below to begin a free 7-day trial!

Related Items:

Living in the Here and Now
Things didn't go exactly as she had planned but that was alright

Facing Life
He found AA in prison and a new way to live

Upstairs at the Meeting
A very different world awaited this AA only steps from her local bar

Happy Endings
The story of a couple who met in AA and later married