Burning Desire to Share
"In my opinion anyone who doesn't work the steps, pray to god and read the big book don't belong in AA.
I was taught not to tolerate all the rebels and liberals in AA.
We have to keep AA pure and free from the infidels, Don't we?"
WOOF!-yes that was an actual guy who spoke at our meeting last night. The very sad thing was many people were nodding their heads. If that guys message doesn't scare the newcomer away, I don't know what will.
I went up to tell the him to lighten up but my words just slipped off his ears. He looked right through me. Then I went over and greeted the newcomers and offered my number.
I'm really glad this site is open-minded and people share all kinds of ideas. People with time understand that lead was against everything we encourage but, the newcomers who heard it, I pray they return.
Occasionally, a crackpot will speak in our group. Natural born entertainers who place themselves and their Big Book on steroid flavored AA above the principals and traditions. A few weeks ago, a woman who purposely sat way in the back was called up to the podium. She screamed "Hallelujah! And ran down the aisle waving the big book high in the air screaming 'everything you need to know is in this book if it ain't in here it ain't AA!'" As she continued talking little did she know half the room left. Most of the people remaining where her followers and groupies. After the meeting ended, I felt sick and ran up to the podium and grabbed the old mic and calmly announced, "The opinions of this person does not reflect AA as a whole or the average member" A few of the group members told me to stop it and at the following group meeting I was put on probation. I left the group permanently and joined a mens group crosstown. When I shared it at the meeting the men gave me an applause followed by guffaws.
Thank goodness the majority of people aren't crackpots in AA.
I'm glad you found a group that follows the 12 traditions instead of one in which a member runs down the aisle with a big book or you can be put "on probation." That's definitely not from our traditions!
I've been in recovery since 2005. Four years ago I returned to the Catholic Church after being away since college. I adhere to the doctrine of transubstantiation. Which is in the Eucharist, the substance of the bread and the wine used in the sacrament is changed into the substance of the Body and the Blood of Jesus. So after I receive the host I sip the wine. I hadn't mentioned this to my sponsor until recently. He said I was in relapse. I totally disagree. My faith in God is to strong to allow me to live in relapse. The amount that touches my lips is not enough to start the cravings. Anyway, said he couldn't sponsor me anymore. He's been hostile toward my return to the Catholic Church from the start. AA helps me with alcholism but church helps me with my faith and through this faith I have become a respectable person again. I have a goal of becoming a deacon. When I shared this with him he went ballistic. Sometimes, we must follow our true paths even if the ones closest to us disagree. Are there any other people in recovery that have returned to faith and felt hostility? I'd like to know. Thanks Vincent
You don't have to take the wine at Communion. For many years, wine was not even offered. Since the host itself becomes the body of Christ, the blood of Christ is included in the body. Thus, you receive both the body and blood of Christ in the host and do not have to include the wine separately. I stopped taking the wine even before my recovery after noticing the strong smell of saliva in the cup one Sunday...
Many years ago at the beginning of an AA meeting that I attended the chairperson asked the participants for a topic. One of the new guys said he had a problem with extreme cravings for wanting to drink again and didn't know what to do about it. We encouraged him to talk openly and honestly about what he was doing in his day to day life that might be triggering him. And he was very honest and forthcoming about everything he was doing to work his program. The other members when they took their turns at speaking thanked him for his honesty and offered him words of encouragement.
About 10 minutes before the meeting ended the newcomer suddenly blurted out: " I have just started going back to church and I have been sipping the wine when we have communion but our priest has assured me that it is alright and will not harm me in any way, because it's part of the service"
We all sat there in stunned silence. I'm not sure what was said after that....
I asked an Old Timer once what the term: "To thine own self be true" meant that was on the back of my medallion. He looked at me, smiled and said: It means don't Bulls#&t yourself! "Alcoholics are experts not only at Bulls#&ting
others, but themselves as well" I smiled too!
I have a friend who is an alcoholic in recovery, who is a priest. He uses non alcoholic wine at mass, with the full support of his Bishop.
If you make your condition known, the church can provide a non alcoholic alternative consecrated alongside the alcoholic wine, if you so choose. We also provide gluten free hosts these days too! We are allergy inclusive:-)
That said your ex sponsor's apparent underlying hostility to the Catholic faith is not healthy. My own sponsor is not Catholic though he respects the God of my understanding, find yourself someone who does from the outset.
Breaking up with a sponsor is similar to divorce--there are 3 sides; his side, her side and the truth. Is your sponsor
really upset because you are Catholic or because you drink the wine. I can only speak for me but alcoholics of my type
shouldn't drink the wine. I do not knowingly ingest alcohol in any form. That includes: extract, cooking, near bear, medicines, on and on and on. ANYTHING containing alcohol is dangerous to me. For me things that taste like alcohol are
dangerous to me because of the association. Some churches offer grape juice. If your God is all powerful, loving and forgiving He will understand if you don't drink the wine.
All my best, Me and sober.
It sounds a bit counter productive that your sponsor be against that being it's part of your faith, your higher power. It almost seems that this sponsor has no faith in your recovery.... to be in AA or participate in AA, in my belief and understanding, does not mean self weakness or weakness in general. You stood up and want change in your life and participating in your faiths' rituals does not mean that you are relapsing nor will relapse. Of course this is my opinion and I'm no doc or AA thumper it's just my opinion.
I don't agree with bashing the sponsor, personally that kind of behavior is not healthy. Now, as for the religious/spiritual aspect of your question, it seems to me if you are questioning it then you are on the right path. Some members believe that abstinence is the ONLY way, and for some that may very well be true, however, we are not to be sponsoring people to push our beliefs and ideas onto them nor judge/ridicule them for going against their grain but to help guide us with their experiences/lessons and never to give advice or tell us what to do. Because a sponsor in my opinion should be a friend/adviser not your boss or adjudicator. Also, keeping in mind that we are not perfect, we are all human. If I was in your situation I would have to decline the wine but for you it sounds fine. oh wow, didn't do that on purpose. lol
You need to remove a defective character, your so called sponsor. I've been through a couple of accidents, tasting alcohol. Mouthwash. On a cruise once, waiter brought a samples of some purple sherbet to our table. I took a pretty good spoonful and my taste buds screamed Mad Dog. (Mogan David if you weren't a connoisseur) I've been at this for a while and was given that million dollar pause to think before acting. I swallowed it. Nothing happened. The waiter didn't do anything wrong. He didn't stick a funnel in my mouth. I'm the oddity. Most people can drink alcohol normally. I can't. I really didn't think that spitting on the tablecloth or carpet would be in anybody's best interest, so I didn't. Didn't like the idea but swallowed it anyway. I don't avoid alcohol because of moral objections or some contest (your sponsor's) requires it. I don't drink it because drinking a small amount (how small?) starts a craving etc. I guess this is the first time I've ever shared this story. If someone in a room started the topic, I'd share to be helpful. Otherwise I've learned that AA is full of knuckleheads like your sponsor that don't need to hear my fifth step. The birthday, medallion, marking time business has gotten so out of proportion that I no longer participate. I've been sober since my second meeting a number of years ago. That's how long. On anniversaries, I sincerely thank people for joining us. God has done all the heavy lifting.
Glad you have seen that you have outgrown the jerk and are ready to move on. Glad you joined us.
very true...I thank you for your insight,Jim
Thanks for a sincere mature adult message. I was beginning
to think that all the sensible early timers had died. I have stayed sober since my third A.A. meeting, many years
ago. I love A.A. and also believe that God has done all the
heavy lifting. I just need to obedient and observant. I
usually recommend that a fifth step be done with someone
outside of A.A. unless you can find an A.A. priest. There
are some, but they are really busy.
The celebrations, medallions, marking time is time
filling and time consuming. These activities negate our
"policy" of equality. ANONYMOUS
I live on the tribal lands and take peyote for religious purposes once a year. I've been sober since the middle eighties. This use only becomes controversial when I visit the Anglo-meetings. I'm right with the great spirit, my family, ancestors and the tribal community. As far as I'm concerned alcoholics who abuse sugar, processed foods, nicotine, gambling, sex and pharmaceutical-drugs while in recovery are creating more harm to themselves than my use of peyote for religious purposes once a year.
If you are right with the higher spirit you are right with me.
Thanks Vincent, interesting comments, it is my experience that we in AA seem tolerate of most any kind of religious faith with the exception of Christianty. I am not a Christian and sometimes find myself being a bit sacrilegious but have always encourgaged those with whom I help to return to their faith if it enhances ones sobriety. Not quite sure about "sipping" the wine; think that is very dangerous for folks like us. Are you allowed to substiture any non-alcoholic grape juice for example? Best to you God Bless, Fred
I personally would be afraid to sip the wine, because eventually I would chug the whole thing down on a bad day, but I support any alcoholic who does choose to sip in regards to their faith. I mean really sip, and the way you describe it I think there is nothing to fear. Non-alcoholic beer used by many in the rooms has more alcohol in it then your sip. As the tribal fellow mentioned I've seen worse in AA. Between gambling, sex, food, nicotine and pain medications, some AA'ers can turn to these alternatives in a far greater fashion and pretend to be sober. Honesty is important and who am I to judge another alcoholic?...I'll leave it to the gurus who like to fuss over these things. It keeps them from focusing on their own recovery. Thanks for your thought provoking situation. I really appreciate it sincerely.
I currently live in Poland, where we have a strong Catholic background. Many of my AA friends are Catholic, and their faith forms a strong complement to the spirituality in AA. I think AA tells us that we need God, religion "fills in the outline" by telling us what God is saying and has said through the centuries. The early AAs were all very positive on religion: Bill W almost became a Catholic and his spiritual mentor, Father Ed Dowling, was a Jesuit. All that said, I think your ex-sponsor is somehow right in saying that taking the wine in communion is relapse. It is not the amount of the wine, it is the principle of it. In our church there is always the option of taking non-alcoholic grapejuice, or simply "honoring the sacrament" through crossing arms over the chest and giving a slight bow but not imbibing.
Sponsors are to help you through the steps,Alcohol in any form or amount are dangerous for us. The fact that you took the wine at all and do not seem to be bothered by it May be relapse or at least you might be setting yourself up for one. I put my finger in a cocktail and tasted it because I never tried one like it before.After talking to my sponsor, He said it is my sobriety and My conscience. I picked up a 24 hour chip and began a new chapter in my sobriety.If I cant drink safely, Then why would I put my sobriety at risk and in fact My Life at risk for the taste of something I know has destroyed my life every other time in entered my body.
I am Catholic and when it is time for the sacriments, I choose to pass on REAL wine and My church has Non-alcoholic wine for the Kids, I choose to be a kid. LOL
I said a prayer for you.
I think everyone should follow their own conscience, but personally I wouldn't have taken a new 24 hour chip because I stuck my finger in a cocktail and tried it. Nor would I consider a tiny sip of Communion wine a relapse. If you don't imbibe enough to feel anything at all then I wouldn't consider it a relapse myself. Where do you draw the line? There is Vanilla extract in most baked goods, but I wouldn't consider a cookie a relapse...
From Vincent: "I adhere to the doctrine of transubstantiation. Which is in the Eucharist, the substance of the bread and the wine used in the sacrament is changed into the substance of the Body and the Blood of Jesus."
From Anonymous:"I put my finger in a cocktail and tasted it because I never tried one like it before."
You don't see the difference between these two posts, do you? Vincent sips the wine (the blood of his Savior) in the practice of his religion. You tasted the cocktail to see what it tasted like.
I personally know more than a half dozen AAs with long term sobriety who take communion AFTER THE WIND HAS BEEN TRANSFORMED. I also know habitual slippers who 'just wanted to know what it tasted like'.
Sadly there are many in AA who are like your sponsor, so narrow minded that can peek through a keyhole with both eyes.
In the early seventies Dick Cavvett had a two part show on alcoholism and recovery. As guests he had recovered alcoholics and a non-alcoholic representative from AA. One of the guests was a priest who was asked how he could take the wine and still say he couldn't drink alcohol in any form. His answer was the same as yours, that it wasn't wine any more.
Over the years I've known many Catholics who take communion. And I have sponsored, among others, a Catholic priest.
A lot of alcoholics believe it's okay to hang on to their resentment against religion of any sort. At least your sponsor admitted he could no longer sponsor you, even if his reasons are wrong.
Wanted to title “He Corey” but I resisted. Sure you’ll find this quick enough.
Crumbs. I’m starting to thing that a lot of people are living on crumbs. It’s starting to look like the AA program is so powerful that people are staying sober on the crumbs that fall off actual member’s programs. No steps, no Higher Power, no sponsor, no commitment. The novelty of a solid bowel movement kept me sober for a little while but it soon gave out and I had to start reading the writing on the wall, but not these guys (according to them anyway).
Of course that leaves the future a little shaky. When newcomers try to live off the crumbs that fall off crumbs…..
That's a very different way to look at it. Like when I share and drop the message of recovery the new comers can feed off the crumbs. Were I'm from in Houston we will tell the new comers that the program of a a is not sexual transmitted. And it will not rub off on you. We ask them to work the steps or die. Or don't work the steps and end up living like a Roach.
What are you talking about? So anyone that has experiences in recovery different than yours falls into the crumb category? We should worry about our own recoveries and stop trying to control the flow of AA as it goes down the river. Its interesting to me certain people in the rooms are trying to defend something that never existed in the first place.
I agree with you 100% about the crumbs, however the fact that I agree with you dosn't mean much to anyone but me ;)
That is a wonderful statement: Alcoholics are staying sober
on the crumbs. The bottom was raised after A.A. became of
Age. If we do not try to cram the whole cake down their
throats, choking them to death, maybe they will stick around for more.
If alcoholics are staying sober without a Higher Power,
without a sponsor, and without committments, God bless
them. I see members who claim to have a Higher Power,
have half a dozen sponsors and volunteer for all kinds
of committments (MOSTLY TO CHAIR) and still continue to relapse.
I believe that Alcoholics Anonymous, in its true
intended form, is so powerful that Alcoholics can stay
sober on very little. Imagine how powerful it could be
when the alcoholic gets hungry for more. ANONYMOUS
the following is a blog about an alcoholic...
I have had my running with the law and always tried to stay sober to keep people seeing me as a good person. But when things would get good I would be back to drinking and breaking the law. I used AA to stay sober for only a few months and then I would drink again. I didn't like not talking to the women so it frustrated me in thinking I'll never find a sober girl if I do not meet women in recovery. I kept coming and little by little the city came alive in Oakland. I started seeing people from AA. They would shake my hand and smile. Noone liked me they treated me like a leaper from another planet until AA and church. I gave drinking finally because something bad happened to me physically and I knew one less drink one less poison. Coming back to those meetings keeps me sober to stay away from people who want my money and possessions. These give me something hope and talk about knowledge of what a Higher power does for us. Thank you AA central branch Oakland.
I live a half a continent away but I'm still happy with your success. Hang in there.
My new husband's father is an Alcoholic and drug abuser. My husband does not get drunk regularly but he is not able to say no when offered alcohol. Additionally about 50% of the time when he is drunk he can not hear when another person says 'no' about anything. Every time he gets drunk (not when he has one or two beers) he blacks out and can not remember the night before. All of this freaks me out. He told me that he would stop drinking if I asked him to and it came to a point where I had to ask him to and he had a beer the next day telling me he didn't think he didn't do anything wrong. Am I wrong for asking him not to drink? Might he be an alcoholic?
The black outs are telltale. Well that's my experience, the blackouts were mine. He or you might or might not find a case just like yours to say See! That's just like you. You are an alcoholic. Quit. OK? Good luck.
Of course you are not wrong to ask him not to drink. Are you then also right to say quit or I am outta' here.
He might be an alcoholic. There are just about as many kinds of alcoholics as there are people.
You can always tell an alcoholic - You just can't tell them very much.
Please go to at least 6 Alanon meetings. By then you will see if that fellowship is for you. Good Luck Alice
My dad was an alcoholic Check AA website out it has questions to see if he is alcoholic..but he is. My sister & daughter took me to AA. I am very new but so far I don't want to miss.
I agree that a visit to Alanon sounds like a good idea. In AA we deal with our powerlessness over alcohol. Alanon focuses more on powerlessness over the alcoholic. You will most likely find a treasure trove of experience and information there. Good luck.
My unqualified advice to you is to turn around and never
look back. You are in for a life of misery. Don't stay
until you are locked in and can't leave. Let him know that
these are your plans and don't deviate from them. Very
few alcoholics ever stop drinking, but I believe that
a good relationship is as effective as today's A.A. Is
he worth it? (maybe). But the real question is are you
more important to him than alcohol. He may have already answered that question. Again, my advice
is to simply walk away, and don't look back. Rose
If there's any person placeor thing that upsets me. It's not that person place or this it's me. He is notgonna see he has a problem until its a problem with him. Go to alanon. There you will find people that's going through the same thing Ans did not leave and some my have left.
My dear when he is ready to admit he has a problem with alcohol he will. Pain is a great motivator. Maybe he hasnt hit his rock bottom. If alcoholism runs in the family, its possible that he is an alcoholic to. No, its not wrong for you to ask him to not drink. He will stop when he is ready, if he is ever ready. If he doesnt and it is affecting your life you can get help by going to a 12 step program called alanon. This is a good program,you might want to look in to it. I am an alcoholic in recovery, and I was also raised by an alcoholic so AA, NA, and Al-anon are programs that I use to help me to stay sober, and clean. Good luck and God bless. Lisa
I just wanted to share a joy. I’ve been living in a place where the meetings are blatantly religious. I’ve suffered them for 5 years now. I never engaged in controversy but, it wasn’t easy being the token oddball no one talks to. Believe me, I tried to fit in but, it wasn’t meant to be. Perhaps, the cultural differences were too much to overcome for both parties. The other day I found out my company is transferring me to a city where there is an agnostic and atheist AA group just 10 minutes away from my office and another 30 minutes away! The news made me feel like I’d died and went to a AA humanist heaven on earth. What a relief. Now I can listen to people talking my language again. If I learned anything the last five years, it was I can love and tolerate people who I never thought I could. Patience has paid off. I did discover I have the capacity to respect others no matter how far-out-there I think their recovery is or how well they liked me or not. Relieved Anonymous Agnostic
I have found an enormous amount of room to live a complete AA program between religion and the agnostic and atheist thinking. I've tested visiting churches less than half a dozen times in the last 33 years, cracked a bible a few times, read Houston’s Smith’s “Religions of the World” a couple times and couldn't get a thing out of it except nearly the opposite of what believers seem to. The only way I can understand ANYONE getting anything out of it is that their brains are made completely different than mine. I've learned to accept that. Not inferior – different. If you consider the simple mention of god and prayer included in Alcoholics Anonymous program of recovery religious then I don’t see how AA has anything to offer you. The 201 word instruction sheet hanging on the wall mentions alcohol twice and god 5 times. It’s not difficult for me to see belief in a higher power essential.
On the other end of the scale, I can't look at a sunrise or a rose and see how ANYONE can't see a Higher Power at work. It took some looking to sort through the nature of a god that obviously has helped millions (including me) not only get sober but completely reverse the course of their lives yet allows a tremendous amount of pain to occur in the world. Much better minds than mine have been working on this dilemma for thousands of years and by simply looking to them I have found answers that satisfy me. If you’re a & a AA groups don’t get you what you need, just look around. The answers are out there.
I would say our beliefs our different. My question is, "Why out of 58,800 AA groups in America people get stir crazy and hostile because there are a handful of atheist and agnostic AA groups approved by Central Office? You said, "If you consider the simple mention of god and prayer included in Alcoholics Anonymous program of recovery religious then I don’t see how AA has anything to offer you" Okay first of all, there is not much sobriety in this way of thinking.
Love and tolerance is our code. I'm not sure this statement of yours reflects this. Secondly, your statement is incorrect. There is more to AA than God and Prayer. If all there was to getting sober was God and Prayer we could just go to church. Before AA formed, God and Prayer or Soup and Salvation was the only thing offered to drunks and this did not work. Bill W. and the earlier members saw the social-humanist value in drunks helping drunks, "The first person who was speaking my language" as Dr. Bob put it in his story. So to me, an agnostic and atheist AA member can speak more of my recovery language than say a religious member who talks about God and Prayer. Are the rooms big enough for these two styles? Absolutely! Live and Let Live
GOD BLESS YOU!!!
That was tongue-in-cheek I believe
Thanks for your sense of humour
The thing that bothers me is that an alcoholic finding
and attending an A.A. meeting would logically think that
the meeting they are attending is real A.A. Would they
not think that all meetings are alike. If the God talk
might turn someone away, should we not go easy on the
We must separate the fellowship from religion. Practice
your religion in a place of worship. Praying is a religious
practice. It does not belong in an A.A. meeting. Citing
the serenity and the Lords Prayer ought to be tolerable
to most of us. If the majority of group members want to
use these prayers to open and close meetings, it ought
to be done (according to each groups informed group
I can pray (outside of A.A.), share that I pray at a
meeting, but coercing everyone at an A.A. meeting to
"hold hands and pray" is simply wrong, and harms A.A.
as a whole.
I am certainly glad that you found an area of A.A.
where you are comfortable. I could not change locations
but was able to form three groups where we do not read
"How it Works", do not chant and do not "hold hands
and pray". Maybe someday all A.A. meetings everywhere
will be acceptable to any alcoholic approaching us. That
is what A.A. should be. ANONYMOUS
I’m new to AA and I have been going to many meetings the past 6 months. I have a situation and I thought members on this site might help and it feels safe to me. I’m quiet and mistrustful of people in my group. I sit in the back and watch and listen. I was told to get a sponsor and to start reading the Big Book and to start asking god for help. I was raised with no religion so, I don’t know how to pray to God. I have no experience with a God. I haven’t found anyone yet who seems normal to be my sponsor but there is one guy I might ask. Everyone else seems hyped up on god and ordering people to work the steps. No one talks about alcoholism or how they feel. However, there is a biker guy though I relate to. He served in Vietnam and has a real sense of reality when he talks. That thousand yard stare my father took with him to the grave has left this man and his eyes shine with love. His talk cuts the BS in the room in half. The members tolerate him but, I can tell he’s not one of them and they don’t treat him with respect. But, he was the only person that ever greeted me politely when I showed up. When he talks it comes from his heart. This man is very soulful. I actually am not used to men talking this way. The real problem is I am a woman and was told to stick with the women. But, the women here I think are jealous of me because I’m younger and the guys well I feel their eyes wandering on me when I cross the room. The other members have tried to make passes at me but, this guy never has. He just smiles and says “Glad to see ya” and walks away and sits in his usual spot against the wall. He must have 40 years on me so I feel safe. My girlfriend told me I have a “daddy crush” and to stop chasing father figures but, I like the way this man thinks. I’m afraid to ask because I don’t want to give him the wrong idea. But, he really is the only one in the group that talks real. Has any other member had a sponsor from the opposite sex or same-sex when applicable? Can it work? I just don’t think there is one stable woman in my group. Thanks everyone from Erin
“But the ex-problem drinker who has found this solution, who is properly armed with facts about himself, can generally win the entire confidence of another alcoholic in a few hours. Until such an understanding is reached, little or nothing can be accomplished.
That the man who is making the approach has had “the same difficulty, that he obviously knows what he is talking about, that his whole deportment shouts at the new prospect that he is a man with a real answer, that he has no attitude of Holier Than Thou, nothing whatever except the sincere desire to be helpful; that there are no fees to pay, no axes to grind, no people to please, no lectures to be endured - these are the conditions
we have found most effective.
After such an approach many take up their beds and walk again.”
as a male with 31 years sober and sponsor "people"and I can honestly speak to this extremely necessary topic.my experience has been good with both,and for this reason.I was told by my very first sponsor that we arrive on the planet with a mother and a dad,we need guidance from a woman and a man.I have had 3 men sponsors in my 31 years and
2 women.because I had only 1 reason for asking for their help,not to get me sober,the program got me off booze and drugs.my mom died when I was 13 and I really needed this lady's guidance,she passed away this year with 55 years of
living this program ,I met her when I checked into detox and
she told me I just "might"be worth saving,which I didn't even believe,but she didn't give up even when I would mess up.My men sponsors all taught me solid AA and held me accountable all along the way and all of them urged me to
continue to"enlarge and perfect"my spiritual life.Dr Bob
gave some clear directions about the duties of a sponsor in
A manual for Alcoholics Anonymous (Akron) about 1939-40,I
believe still in print.A book (the wife of the alcoholic-
1953 )Lewis F. Presnall/same author for Search for Serenity,
an AA staple.also the personal story in BB (He sold himself short )at that time men and their wives attended meetings
together,and if men had not been supported by their wives AA would never have done so well.Cutting out men or women
from helping you build a spiritual life that will stand up
to any problem you might run into/do your own research and
trust your HP to keep you walking in the sunlight of the spirit.
I believe if we come here for the right reasons it doesn't matter if we have a male sponsor. I have seen it work for people who are truly interested in being sober. I have also seen people change and get new sponsors when they "outgrow" each other.Maureen
Thanks for the feedback. It helps to have many points of view. So far everything is fine. I decided to just be friends with that man and go to a womens group for a while.
in the begging in might work. ive had one to ask me to sponser her and it worked for a wile. i was always encurging her to get a woman to work with and after im glad to say that she got a woman sponsor. thank god it was very hard telling her the truth to her. she was very fragile but she maid it, and moved from houston to new orleans