Burning Desire to Share
I have experienced the "lost connection" that you speak about. I've heard people say that your higher power never leaves you and is always there with open arms just waiting for your return. The story we build up in our own heads fills us with fear that our connection is lost forever or it will never be as strong as it once was. My experience has been that the shame I put on myself showed up as a black cloud blocking a strong connection. As I set out once again to work my program the cloud slowly began to clear and I could feel the power of my higher power start to shine through. Then the miracle happened and the connection was back stronger than ever!! I was so grateful to once again have that relationship back. My life was empty without it and I ask my higher power in prayer to never allow me to break the connection again. Without it I am lost.
I got a DWI also and it was the best thing that ever happened to me, it got me to put AA first in my life.I got picked up for meetings by older members and I started sharing about myself, now I get regular meetings share from the heart.By sharing at regular meetings im getting recovery for myself, helping others and showing love to others in the fellowship, by showing love in the fellowship it helps me to show love in my home also. Recovery guaranteed
What is it you think you had and now lost or lost an now have?
All anyone has is a day at a time right here right now don't lose that too !!!!!!!
You didn't "lose" your sober time. You've just had an interruption. Of course you're feeling beaten. Alcohol has beaten you. Now you have to beat it by getting a sponsor, working the steps and going to a lot of meetings. I've relapsed many times but I now have 22 years of sobriety. Bill W. said (As Bill Sees It) not to worry too much about your slip. It may kick you upstairs rather than downstairs. Forgive yourself (God already has)and move forward being gentle with yourself and trusting God. Oh, and share in meetings what you're feeling.
Thanks. needed that too. 4 days....again.
Greatly appreciated, good to hear some real sobriety.
I have had some experience with this as I find myself in a similar situation. I think you need to find someone where you are located to reach out to and to talk about how you are feeling. I understand how much is hurts to ask for help but when you need it you just have to do it. Also yes it gets harder every time you go back out. I think you have it you just need to use a bit more action. We have to want to quit and then we have to work to stay that way! Just keep going to meetings and talking to your higher power he is there always, remember he has never left you. We make it hard for him to reach us sometimes. I wish you all the best and I know you can do this don't give up.
Bill W. said a slip can kick you upstairs instead of downstairs. Learn from this in the future you could possibly look at this a gift believe it or not. People talk about remorse, guilt, feeling beaten. Well, that's what the steps are for! Don't stop at step 3 keep working the steps. Take the suggestions you hear like: double up on your meetings, read the Big Book and 12/12, get a sponsor, call your sponsor everyday, work with the new person, prayer and meditation in the mornings, talk to another alcoholic everyday, coffee with alcholics after the meetings, go to sober functions. You can do this thing. We will help you. You are not alone anymore!
Our elders warned us about the growing rigidity in A.A.
in the late 1980's. I believe this approach is exactly
what they warned us about. Why do we continue making
these demands? What happened to: Have a seat. How do you
take your coffee? Listen to us for a while. Thank you for your time. You enrich our sobriety by being here. We
will help in any way we can. Welcome to A.A. ANONYMOUS
It's hard to say where your at without knowing you. Only you know if you had it before and thats all that matters. None of us are saints or have perfect adherence to this program. Some go further out then others. You know what trouble you have caused in your own life but you can't change what has happened and you can't worry about the future. "Yesterday is history and tomorrow is a mystery".
You have to ask you self the big question. Are you done? If you are then pick up the book and start reading.
Start with the title page and don't skip a page.
If you don't have a sponsor get one.
Don't wait for the judge to sends you to meetings. Get to one today. I know it's hard but it's only hard the first time. Go to at least one meeting a day.
Take the setps as thoroughly and rapidly as possible. Incorporate them into you life on a daily basis.
Most importantly turn your will over to God. With God in your life anything is possible.
Let everything else go except what is happening today. Only focus on the task at hand. One day at a time really works.
i guess ur could say thru my life i have relapsed many times. this last time in the program i have found new light and am going to meetings this time not court ordered. by reading the big book,12/12, and the daily reflections, i have found that inner peace and serenity. i have been sober for a year, first time that i can remember since i was very very young. it has opened new doors for me and the ppl around me, especially my family. meetings are my source of strength, and really a person can go thru life sober and be able to deal with anything that comes ur way. i met a fella named scott at my last meeting, he told me it only gets better, i was thinking, this is good, better is great! i feel the need to go to meetings in the hope of finding those ppl to give me serenity, and hope that i can be of assistance to anyone i can help stay sober
Believe it or not that's what happens when you drink !!!!\
Why is it the most insane thing one does is when SOBER? that is know what it's like today and pick up another drink !!!
Insanity or stupidity your pick.
Its hard to say if u ever really had it. i know i confused emotionalism for spirituality for awhile.
In 1991 i had worked through steps 1-9 and felt great. i felt so good, i didnt work 10,11, & 12 and i got drunk.
That last drink was the best thing that ever happened to me. i was able to fully conced to my innermost self that i am an alcoholic (step 1). then i worked all 12 steps with a willingness i never had before.
That was aug 1992 and i have been happy and sober since. I practice pages 84-88 from the big book daily and carry the message the best i know how.
The joy and serenity has multiplied steadily over the years.
Good luck to you and remember, our most satisfactory years are ahead of us
I have been through quite a bit in the past few years. I was hospitalized for depression. I got out, then two years later my alcoholism hit full force along with me abusing my medications which landed me in Detox. Thankfully I was smart enough to get myself to Detox as I knew this wasn't what I wanted. I had lived a long time with depression, self hate, no confidence, etc.... Since I have been sober (4 months) I have learned so much more about myself. In the beginning, I went to the meetings and was the quite person in the corner who would show up on time and leave right after the meeting so that I wouldn't have to meet or talk to anyone. I would shy away from anyone and everyone. I really didn't enjoy going but I thought that as long as I went to the meeting I would just stay sober. I have come to find out the meetings are way more than that. I have slowly opened myself up to AA and met people. It has been the best thing in my life. There are actually people out there who are wonderful and will care about you for you. They don't care about what you did they just care about you now and want to be there for you. It is like nothing I have ever experienced. It has made me so much happier and I actually feel good about myself. I can't get enough of going to my meetings and seeing all the people I have met. On the down side, my husband isn't as happy with this as I have met people that he now doesn't know. I depend on these people more in my sobriety because they understand where he doesn't. I also don't think that he likes the new me as much and honestly, I don't plan on changing back. It is really hard to come to that realization but it is something that I have to think about and I am not ready for it. My sponsor has told me that it is too early to worry about that part of my future and worry about me and now which I am doing but I do worry about my future. I just wanted to share to see if anyone else is going through the same thing.
"It is impossible to outgive The Spirit" anonymous
For 30+ years I've been a sober and, early on sometimes dry, agnostic member of AA, still and always starting every day with a meeting. I am confortable in my acceptance of a higher power with no idea what he, she or it is with no direct obligation to one molecule of humanity. I cherish the memory of my late wife and a favorite golden retriever, but I believe neither is waiting for me up on some cloud and sooner or later I shall also be dust and that's the natural way. I appreciate the gentle and comfortable assertion -- rather than confrontation-- of Steven Hawking in his current book, "The Grand Design," that there is no god or God and the laws of nature explain all about us. And in three decades and perhaps 4,000 AA meetings all over the world, I've most often found tolerance rather than aggression in meeting rooms. Til recently. ...And remarks including an oldtimer's, "They should rewrite the Chapter to the Agnostic and make it, Sure, agnostics are welcome but sooner or later you'll get it, and another oldtime echoing, There's a good reason we close every meeting with the Lord's Prayer.
Despite people in A.A. telling the world the only way to get sober is through god, I found that without drugs and alcohol clouding my senses god became irrelevant.
So was it your own thinking that got you to stop the drugs and alcohol? It was surly something that caused your change.
Are you also saying that you did this with out working the steps???
How long have you been sober? Good luck doing this on your own.
How can one do it on their own???? Do you live on earth?
I know a lot of lonely people sitting next to their sponsor in A.A. without God one can ONLY alone are you promoting yourself or your outside system?
Yes, in the past three decades we have "morphed" from
a fellowship to a Fellowship. This evolution has taken
place everywhere except in the preamble. In another decade
that will also be changed. It took Bill W. and Dr. Bob
their lifetimes to discover that the solution to reaching
the heart of the suffering alcoholic is love and tolerance.
But today we tell them: That one is God; May you find Him
NOW. I am convinced that the reading of "How It works"
aloud at meetings has been a horrible mistake and has
pushed millions from our rooms, millions who could have
been saved. I came to this belief when I finally fully
understood why the 24hr book was rejected by Bill W.
and his friends. ANONYMOUS
I am new...again. What is the 24hr book and why was it rejected?
You must really be new if you do not know what the
24hr book is. Or you are in an area which really knows
and obeys the traditions. The Little Black Book of
shame and guilt ought not be read or displayed in an
A.A. meeting room. Many A.A. members use it in their
personal life. I have loved and used the 24hr book
most of my A.A. life, but it was wisely rejected in
the early 1950's. Bill and his friends rejected it
as being too religious for our fellowship. I
believe Bill was concerned that A.A. would look
too much like, and become just another religion. Bill wrote in "Alcoholics Anonymous Comes of Age", that nothing
could be so unfortunate for A.A.'s future. Bill
repeated that warning in "Language of the Heart" in
a 1963 issue of the AA Grapevine. Those are two
conference approved books in addition to the AAGrapevine.
The 24 hours a day book was discussed in great depth
on earlier I-SAY postings. Thanks to Our I-SAY team
these messages remain for you to read. Great reading,
in my, not so humble, opinion. ANONYMOUS
I should have used the word develop instead of discover.
Bill and Dr Bob discovered the solution to alcoholism in
1935, using advice from Dr Silkworth. They spent the rest of their lives developing that solution and leaving it for
us. The final answer is offered to us on page 70 in AACA.
Bill writes in italics "THIS WAS IT". And this mutual give-
and-take is at the very heart of all of A.A.'s Twelth step
work today. This was how to carry the message. Bill wrote
that message in 1957. How many of us today have any idea
what our co-founder was writing about?
I think you are in the minority. I travel with business and attend meetings all over the US. I can't recall one that God was an issue. Sure people struggle with the God concept. But this program is based on Christianity. Do the research.
The Oxford group was strict. Bill and Bob relaxed the strictness to a God of your understanding to get through to the people that struggled with this concept. But step 11 clearly is all about growing your spiritual relationship with God.
I have seen more new comers succeed by gaining belief in God then those with resistance. Resistance is the biggest issue with AA success. If you can't get through the first 3 steps how can the rest of the program work??????
In reply to psanchez (Tue, 2012-07-03 19:03.) The author of the post that you replied to may be in a minority, but he is certainly not alone in what he thinks. Concept V tells me minority opinion can often be right, especially if and when there is an apathetic, uninformed, misinformed or angry majority. It should always be noted.
I live in Great Britain in an area where there is disunity. It is not pleasant. I think there is a tyranny of very small minorities invested with absolute power in AA, and a minority speaking out against them. The majority is either uninformed about the situation, and of early AA history, Traditions and Concepts or it is being misinformed about them in outside published literature. AA wasn’t the Oxford Group, neither were the Twelve Steps drawn entirely from the Oxford Group. They were also drawn from psychiatry and psychology. The basis for Step One came from psychiatrists Dr. Silkworth and Dr. Carl Yung; Step Eleven from psychologist William James. There are many ways of interpreting step eleven; they need not necessarily be of a religious form. I don’t know what material you have researched to get that misguided and narrow impression of yours. If it is from the internet and outside published literature, then I suggest your broaden your research to “A fragment of History: Origin of the Twelve Steps, The Language of the Heart pp 195-202, “Dr. Yung, Dr. Silkworth, and AA” The Language of the Heart pp 281-286. “After Twenty Five Years” The Language of the Heart pp 297-298. From what you say about strictness I think you are uninformed, or misinformed. From what the author of the previous post says, I think he is well informed. I think a few can see the writing on the wall. A minority now perhaps, but I am reassured to see that this minority opinion appears to be growing. I suggest you research the AA Grapevine archive over the last twenty years and research items such as “Cult-like or Just Welcoming?” and “Is AA just for Christians?” There is a sizable minority opinion voicing similar concerns. Look at what is on this forum, the outside sponsorship system. Look at the regional reports on the GSO website. Join all the dots.
Extract from East Canada Regional Forum 2010, Final Report; p3, workshop report: “What Are We Doing to Keep Prospective Members from Coming Back?”:
“Some attendees said the problems that A.A. groups have in failing to connect to newcomers is a Twelfth Step issue. One attendee mentioned that detoxes and other treatment facilities have preempted a lot of Twelfth Step work formerly done by A.A. members.” http://www.aa.org/en_pdfs/en_rf_finalrep_sept17-19-10.pdf
.Extracts from Final Report, Pacific Regional Forum 2010, p 5:
“Outside Issues- Are We on the Precipice?” “On the third topic, the consensus was that promoting school activities is an outside issue, and that tapes such as “Joe and Charlie” along with books other than A.A. publications are outside issues.” “A.A. And Spirituality” “Many of those outside Alcoholics Anonymous view it as a religious cult, and what is needed is good P.I. to address that misconception, said attendees” http://www.aa.org/en_pdfs/en_rf_finalrep_aug27-29-10.pdf
Extract from Final Report,South West Regional Forum 2009 Ask-It- Basket Questions p 6:
Q. In many groups where I live, members have begun to chant in unison “we think not” after someone reads the text on the promises on page 84 in the Big Book. I find this offensive and want to know G.S.O.’s opinion on this? http://www.aa.org/en_pdfs/en_rf_finalrep_october9-11-09.pdf
In Great Britain our General Service Conference gave the following recommendation in 2010:
The Committee would like to draw attention to Conference
recommendation of 1995 which reads:
“that the practice of inviting speakers from overseas and paying their expenses is in breach of Traditions 4 & 12.” (AA Service News 143 Summer 2010) http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk/members/index.cfm?PageID=98&Docum...
In 2011 the G.B. General Service Conference discussed reports of strained relations with some groups and their intergroups:
“This Committee found that strained relations between some groups and Intergroups can inhibit the effectiveness of our primary purpose.” (AA service News 147, Summer 2011, pp 21-22, Committee 4 Question 2 (Extract)
In 2012 the G.B. General Service Conference discussed reports of disunity:
“Reports of disunity in some areas of the Fellowship” (AA service News 149, Winter 2011, p 23, background to Committee 6 question Two (Extract) http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk/members/index.cfm?PageID=98&Docum...
The big shot speakers from the USA are still being invited to Great Britain and still keep on coming. A couple of years I lost contact with a newcomer who had Buddhist spiritual beliefs and was doing well up until he went to a local AA convention spiritual meeting. They sang “Amazing Grace” and “One day at a time sweet Jesus.” After that he didn’t want to make contact and I haven’t seen him since.
In my area I noticed changes in AA about ten years ago. First came holding of hands at the end of the meetings with the chant “Keep coming back, it works if you work it” Then came reading of the promises instead of traditions, then came anti drunkalogue talk, as if talking about your experience of alcoholic drinking in an AA meeting is not something you should talk about. Then in 2009 came a new group that used non standard literature Joe McQ, Dallas Big Book Study Guide, Dick B. Then came complaints from newcomers, complaints from outside organizations dealing with homeless. I was PI co-ordinator at the time and personally wrote replies to these organizations answering their concerns. One had serious concerns about disturbing feed back they received from their clients they had referred to AA and who had gone to that group; about the group’s behavour and it being religious. The other attended their open meeting and stated in their letter “The pervasive religiosity put me off from returning.” I think the local and global situation can be summed up in these words by Bill W:
“Of highest importance would be our relations with medicine and religion. Under no circumstances must we get into competition with either. If we appeared to be a new religious sect, we’d certainly be done for. And if we moved into the medical field, as such, the result would be the same.” (Bill W. AA Grapevine June 1955, Language of the Heart p150)
“…How well we shall always remember that AA is never to be thought of as a religion. How firmly we shall insist that AA membership cannot depend upon any particular belief whatever; that our Twelve Steps contain no article of religious faith except faith in God--as each of us understands him. How carefully we shall thenceforth avoid any situation which could possibly lead us to debate matters of personal religious belief." (Bill W. Extract from “We Came of Age” The Language of the Heart p 122. AA Grapevine September 1950)
“Nothing however, could be so unfortunate for A.A.’s future as an attempt to incorporate any of our personal theological views into A.A. teaching, practice or tradition.” (Bill W. Alcoholics Anonymous Comes of Age, extract from footnote page 232)
Like I say, Join all the dots. A.A. is a global fellowship in one multicultural world, of alcoholics with many different faiths and creeds and languages; essentially one large A.A. group in one world. Each is part of the whole. For better or worse each part affects another. We can work together in a single purpose regardless of our personal beliefs in unity, or we can selfishly pursue our own religious beliefs within AA and fall apart. The choice is ours. Then do as your conscience tells you.
Concept V, page 20 http://www.aa.org/pdf/products/en_bm-31.pdf
For 35 years, attending meetings on a regular basis, I
did not think of AA as anything other than the greatest
organization in the whole world. Like most members, then
and now, I thought AA was alive and well. Today I see our
precious fellowship as being on life support, barely alive.
We are churning, just gaining enough new members to replace
those who die or drop out.
Bill warned us over and over about the blunders we might
make. I believe we have made all of them. Sometimes I think:
Our membership would not listen to Bill. Why would they
listen to me? These blunders have been going on for several
decades. Many members before me have pointed them out to
us. It was the death of so many, and the near death of
my son, that finally got my attention. I lived through
the mistakes and although I did not like them, I just
accepted them. I did not want to be controversial. I
know today that the preamble means public controversy. I
wish it said public controversy. Our fellowship was
built on squabbles and we will hopefully always have
Most AA members are familiar with the steps. Many are
aware of the traditions. Very few have any idea what
the concepts are about. I don't believe that the steps
or traditions will ever be altered. I see the concepts
as having been changed. We don't know enough about them
to prevent them from being changed.
You may know that the design of the Prudent Reserve
Fund was changed. One simple change was from at least
one full year of operating expenses to a requirement
that we deliberately keep Fund less than a year. Three
months would be acceptable under the revised guidelines.
I am sure the intentions were good; why keep the money
in the bank when it can be used to help the suffering
alcoholic. By the simple use of a comma, The AAGRAPEVINE
was positioned under the umbrella of the Prudent Reserve
Fund, and became of equal importance of the GSO. At least
that is the way I read it.
These concerns that I have above the group level will
work themselves out. Self-correcting as Bill described it.
I am concerned with AA at the group level. That is where
the sick alcoholic either lives or dies. Most are dying
today as the result of the way our meetings and groups
At the conference level we must address this issue of
self-support. Using profit from the sale of books and
literature to operate our service center, is a serious
violation of Tradition Seven. This money may not be
public contributions, but in the service manual on page
S74 In 1986 the General Service Board called it dangerous.
It is clear to me that the General Service Board is the
only piece of AA with the power to remedy that concern.
I really appreciate your message and I-SAY for posting
it. I sometimes consider just throwing this keyboard out
the window. But I will continue. Some of my AA friends
are coming to an understanding of what I have been
caterwalling about. We are bringing some reverence back
to local meetings. Again, thanks for remaining. So many
have just walked away: my estimate is six million at
the least. In all honesty, I can't bring myself to
blame them. Who needs the aggravation? ANONYMOUS
Thanks for your reply. Please don’t throw your keyboard out of the window yet. I wish I could convey how much you are helping me. You give me a lot of hope and encouragement; though you might not have been aware of it up until now. You have helped pull me out of what was a low ebb at the time of me joining this forum. So thank you.
I found your reference to the 1986 General Service Board's request for special effort to be made to inform the fellowship of the dangers. It took me a while to find, because the page number had changed due to updating later editions. I found it on page S72 in my copy, in the section titled A.A. World Services Inc. I’m concerned that the paragraphs relating to this have been edited from the current 2011-2012 edition of the A.A. Service Manual. (See the online version; link below)
Because this is such a vitally important and ongoing issue for A.A. I think the references to the 1986 General Service Board’s request to inform the fellowship of the dangers and the subject matter relating to it should be re-instated in the next edition of the manual. I think we can’t afford to forget things like this. It might be worth putting this as a request to the literature committee or as question for conference by A.A. members living in the USA perhaps?
As you rightly say, they didn’t want to listen to Bill W. at first with the traditions; except those groups that were in dire trouble, but eventually the whole fellowship did because they knew they had to. I do think a lot of people are listening to you though, but you just have no way of knowing it. Keep faith, you have laid a path of experience on this forum for others like me to follow, and I think a very good and solid one at that. I wish I had more time to write, but thanks again for your encouragement and support; and please keep on tapping away. Go easy on yourself at the same time though, you’re only one in about two million and we should all bear the responsibility.
AA Service Manual online, (A.A. World Services Inc. pp S73-S74): http://www.aa.org/pdf/products/en_bm-31.pdf
When I got sober there was no asking for burning desires at the end of meetings. It was said--if you haven't had the opportunity to share and need to do so---ask someone after this meeting to talk.
Burning desires often turn into pity parties and then the person leaves never truely reaching out for--or open to -- a solution. I get my solutions IN meetings. Not running out and waiting for someone to follow me and save me! Am I hard core--or closed minded??? I believe in the steps. Steps 1-2-3 are not about dumping---they are about admitting and seeking! If someone wants sobriety, no person can give it to them. If someone wants to drink, no person can stop them. It must come from a higher power. I had to seek mine.
Thank you! That has been my experience, strength, n hope also that the oldtimers so freely passed on to me. I also ran to a sponsor's house or put a quarter in the phone n called for help. Yup, hardcore n willing to go to any lengths. NO MATTER WHAT!!
Now you're dating yourself! (ha ha) I remember those days.
There have been some times when that burning desire saved my butt though, but my tendency is agree with you both.
You said "when I got sober," but I think you probably meant "where I got sober." I think the practice in *some* meetings of asking at the end of a meeting whether someone has a "burning desire (to speak)" has been around a long, long time. (I'm talking decades.)
Where I'm from, a few meetings do it as part of their format, but most don't. But the few that do are quite emphatic about it and wouldn't change just because one person doesn't like it.
Like any matter of meeting format, this is something that a group conscience can address. There are always two sides to these discussions; you may not prevail. If you don't, then you will have to decide whether to 1) go along with the group conscience, 2) scheme to overturn it, or 3) go to a different group. All of these outcomes have a long AA history. But no matter what, don't drink.
Yes, this question is another of those intruding
rituals which has appeared in the past two decades.
At least at meetings I have attended in the Northeast.
When it first began, the question was "Does anyone have
any burning desires? I would raise my hand and say "I have
had a burning desire since I was about 12 years old".
If a meeting is properly conducted, there is no
reason a member, who needs to, has not had a chance to
share, unless it is a speaker only meeting.
I have a lot of opinions about lots of customs, and
this is another one I consider nonsense. ANONYMOUS
I am dealing with alot today. My emotions are a jumbled mess. I am tired.
You must be sponsored to not know your living it, try to let go and let God if you are not to far conditioned.
"I am dealing with a lot today. My emotions are a jumbled mess. I am tired."
Response - Welcome, I was tired too.
I can certainly identify. But it will all be
OK in the end. All will be well in the end.
If it is not well, it is just not the end. Rose
an old timer named bud told me that if i am dealing with alot and having urges and ready to give up read page 417 of the big book acceptance read it a few times it works !!!! our big book is the most wounderful tool teaches us how to live sober and how to deal with everyday occurances wow what a powerfull book
I have been in and out of aa for years, but still i don't fit in. I live on the streets and i have next to nothing. The only thing i have is a desire to stay sober. Sometimes i do feel out of place at the meetings,so mostly i remain quiet and just listen. I'm still sober,and i have along way to go on this road of sobriety. But just for today, i trust in my higher power to keep me sober.
Don't worry A.A. is tailored made to fit anyone these days !!!
Oh, you fit in! You need just one small beginning to increase your fitting in on a daily basis. Page 58,"....develop a manner of living..." That's it! Thanks, Corky S. 7-8-71
i once felt the same way as fitting in aa i was living in a run down hotel when i was introduced to aa i came in with my head hanging low i felt like everyone was better than me and that none of them had been as far down the scale as me. i later found out that it was my shame,guilt and remorse and i thought that people were looking at me and judging me for my past when after all it was me judging me for my past. how did i get past all this and learn to love myself and allow others to love this loner. i worked the steps and got into service work and finally found someone to trust and talk to slowly i started to come out of my shell and today i fit in at aa meetings because i am an alcoholic and just another drunk in a chair sharing my experience so that another alkie may find a way out of that deep black pit of alcoholism hang in there and put your hand out andsomeone will grab it
This is Byra esha from India and i am an Alcholic
Today i want to share that i am most resentful about my wife,because always she wants me to be perfect and away from alcohol, before coming to AA Program ie., in the year 2008 i didn't knew about the disease of alcoholism and the power of Steps which is very much useful for a person like me.
Here i say and share that first half of the first step is very much acceptable to me and clearly follows the next sentence that my life is unmanageable, i honestly accept this really 28 years of my drinking took me to great depths from which i was not able to getup and move. Many times even great Psychiatrist were of no useful to me, but aa did it for me for the first 15months i got out of my finance trouble.and also from my taxes. really after this one day my idiot way of thinking of my self will i took the first drink really it damaged me spiritually,mentally,and finally i got the best rewards is resentment,reservation,self centered,fellow.which was really not acceptable words to me. After 2 or 3 months repeatedly taking alcohol like binging for 10days or 15days.that made me to land up with criminal case against me with the local politician.on that when police called me i was not in a mood to accept my faults or mistakes but finally an sponsor who is in the program for past 22years made me to think.. think,, and finally i accepted i was freed without any penalty or without any punishment that day really GOD worked for me.after that i was sober for further 13months i relapsed after this incident i am frequently going for binge which is affecting my work my relationship,with brothers,especially wife and my son now i am working in remote area where there is no aa meetings but i can go through ishare which i was not tried today i tried and i am really feeling light as i started to type my sharing , really alchol played and won my life and i had become his pal really honestly,1000times i repeat that alcohol is most powerful,cunning, and baffling.
You have the courage to stay sober. God helps those who help themselves. Stay strong brother......by asking for help and doing whatever it takes to not isolate. Read page 449. Acceptance. Peace John W
You have the courage to stay sober. God helps those who help themselves. Stay strong brother......by asking for help and doing whatever it takes to not isolate. Read page 449. Acceptance. Peace John W
If you are thinking of drinking wait a short distance. Let time pass and the road to serenity take you by the coat tails. Buckle up, it's the law. Think before you drink. Your name some meaning to others. Have tried, no one knew to tie a shoe.
This is a first for me. I am excited to share some experience with you. I live in Central Minnesota in the United States. My last drink was august 15, 1992.
Sounds like you are started in the right direction. If you have the book Alcoholics Anonymous try to apply the directions outlined for our program. If you don't have it you can find it digitally by using a search engine of your choice.
Once you have the book, there is a chapter called to the wives. It lists 4 types of drinkers and also will help you and your wife to a better understanding.
Best wishes to you,
I’m done with AA. Anybody wanna talk me out of it?
I’ve been going to meetings for 2 months now. At first, I was very glad to be a part of a group that was just like me. These people were going to help me out of a 20yr long addiction to booze. I went meetings where they TALKED about being a family, they TALKED about how great the program is, they TALKED about how they have changed. I’m thinking they just like to TALK.
Nobody has helped me. Nobody has reached out to me. There is one guy who has called me, but it is because the old guy in the group has demanded that he “call me” as a part of HIS recovery!
What the hell???
I tried, I realized that I needed to reach out. I need to ask for help rather than just sit in meetings. So, I started looking for someone to be a sponsor, who can I reach out to? My 1st choice was someone who seemed to say things I thought was intelligent, so I watched as they said “who in here is willing to become a sponsor” – I swear he raised his hand until he saw me watching. Then he never raised his hand again at future meetings.
Undaunted (ok a little daunted), I started to look again (maybe a little more careful this time). I heard a few statements from a guy that I really related with. I got the feeling that he was someone that everyone in the group trusted. After much thought, I decided that I would ask this person to be my sponsor.
I planned on going to the meeting last night, but instead I got drunk. Just before the meeting time, I thought about reaching out. I found the phone #’s that I had received from my 1st meeting 2 months ago, I debated with myself on what I would say & respond with (until the point of time when the meeting started). I told myself I would call him when the meeting ended. I had his phone # right in front of me last night, but then decided that I shouldn’t try to talk with someone while I was drunk. They wouldn’t like it, and I wouldn’t remember it anyway. (my point is that I’m struggling, and trying)
This morning, I went to the store. Guess who I bumped in to? My potential sponsor! I thought it was fate – this is a sign, he’s going to help me! For a brief moment, I had hope. However, this guy who I had respected, totally dissed me (I will leave out details), but he basically walked away from me & told me to call him.
I was raised in church, but in my twenties, I stopped going. I was tired of the hypocrisy. I see the same in my AA group & I see no reason to continue. To sum up my feelings, every group, whether AA, church, or whatever, is made up of people. And people suck! I’m tired of being around people. I’m drinking again, and it feels good, it’s more comfy than the past few months.
Go to a different meeting, not all meetings are the same.
Reach out and ASK for help! You have to be an active participant in your recovery.
Start Reading the Big Book, look for BBSS meetings. Start with the Dr.s Opinion.
Don't take yourself or others so seriously. We all have issues, and some are better with out reach than others.
Do you know what Bill W. did when he found himself
wanting to drink after four months of sobriety? He sought
out another alcoholic to try to help. He was aware that by
trying to help other alcoholics, he had been able to remain
sober. Although Bill had been unsuccessful at helping
any other alcoholics to recover, Bill did stay sober
himself. Suppose Bill had just picked up a drink instead
of picking up that phone in the hotel lobby. AA may
have been started at another time or another place. Maybe.
Before Bill left for Akron, Ohio, Dr Silkworth had
given Bill some good advice about how to help another.
Bill wrote several times that without this advice AA
could never have been born. Dr. Silkworth advised Bill
to stop preaching to the alcoholic. You are pushing them
away by trying to tell them what to do, or telling them
what they must do. Just tell them what you were like,
what you did and what happened to you. Let the new
person know that your attempt to help them is how you
stay sober. And end it there, without making any
demands, recommendations, etc. Just share your
own story. Most alcoholics will respond to that
Bill W. had to search out alcoholics to try to
help. You know where to find them. At AA meetings.
There are usually new and old members who need help.
I have found that by trying to help others, many times
just "lending an ear", has kept the desire to drink
away for over four decades. You can possibly help to
save a life, which otherwise might be lost.
You may notice that I did not advise you to do
90 in 90, get a sponsor, work those steps or find God and find Him NOW. You may decide to do some of these things later. This advice may seem a little strange. Alcoholism
is strange. Why would anyone pour a liquid down their
throat, causing so much misery and death? And misery to
those around us. ANONYMOUS