Burning Desire to Share

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re jim B

Now that I think about it, Jim B is Ed in the third tradition in the 12x12, I think I mispoke and said in pass it on earlier. It's a great example of how the third tradition started so "alcoholics" wouldn't be thrown out of AA. Now we use it to keep "nonalcoholics out of AA".

Day One


Today is my first day of sobriety. I started drinking when I was 18 with my college boyfriend and his friends. I never learned how to drink responsibly. Most of the time I would drink too much only on the weekends. When my father became ill with cancer, almost eight years ago, I started drinking every day. I told myself it was because of my dad's illness but he has been gone for five years and I'm still doing it. I've been married for fifteen years and will not be married much longer if I don't stop. My husband didn't say anything at first but it is really bothering him now. It also affects my daughter's happiness. She has left me notes in my purse telling me that I just don't learn. She is sixteen but wise beyond her years. However, I have tried to stop for them before and that just wasn't enough. As much as I love them I have to do it for me and not because they will be mad if I don't. I've read posts here and feel that this is a good place for me. I just need to be around people who understand what I'm doing and why. Oddly enough I was thrilled to read a post about "Am I That Bad"? Not because that poster feels that way - it is a horrible way to feel - but because I understand it. I spent most of my life feeling like I was bad. Then I'd drink too much and screw up and it would just reinforce that badness to me. It was a vicious cycle. I have worked through the issue of feeling like I'm bad. Now I just have one more hurdle. Thank you for having this place.

day one

first of all I wont to say; you are the most impotant person;an im really really glad your here smile

Joined: 2013-01-18
Day One

You are absolutely right,you do need the support of people who understand what you are trying to do.The fellowship of AA understands because that's what we are trying to do:Don't drink one day at a time.To most of us,AA is meetings. No meetings,no AA......The Grapevine is "our meeting in print"but I've never read the story of someone who stayed sober on the Grapevine alone.Please don't insist on being the first one.Don't make this harder than it has to be.Take advantage of the meetings-they can be magical.

RE: Day One

Hopefully, this is your third day of sobriety. You began
to drink every day. You did what you had to do in order to
drink every day. Now you are beginning to not drink every
day (which, by the way, is possible). You will have to
exert a bit more energy in order to not drink every day.
Find A.A. meetings in your area. Go there. Tell us
who you are and why you are here. If possible, go to a
meeting every day for a while. Try different meetings.
Listen to others share how they stay sober. Spend the
time and energy you spent drinking, learning how not
to drink.
I grew up with an alcoholic father and an angry mother.
I hated him for being "weak", but I picked up a drink and
soon became weaker than my father. I have been sober for
many years and today watch my son as he struggles with
his addictions. I give him the same advice, go to meetings.
If you don't like the meetings, keep going and eventually
you will like them. You will find a group of alcoholics
and will "be there" for each other. Your drinking bothers
your husband and daughter more than you will ever know.
Many times our friends and families just give up in dispair.
Their great love often turns to hate. Don't drink. Be
careful with over the counter medications. Use nothing
containing alcohol. Welcome to your new life. ANONYMOUS

Day One

I asked HOW?
I was answered Honest, Open, Willing.
Honest enough to actually look at my problem. You already have a good start on that.
Open enough to at least park my car in the vicinity of an AA meeting and scurry in like some kind of b-movie spy.
Willing enough to say to myself that out of a roomful of people a couple of them didn't seem too bad. I sure wasn't having any luck on my own. I could go back and listen again.

Its been a number of years since my last drink. The biggest problem in my life no longer even exists. I have a wonderful life and I got it at AA. I hope you join us.

Joined: 2013-01-04
AA has taught me how to live life without alcohol

To let go and let God, to know that I can't control people places and things, to place principles before people, to have humilty, to have graditude, to have acceptance and look for the good in all, to not carry resentments, to learn from the past and not live in the past, to listen, to know that picking up a drink will complete the list of "yets" and lastly to love myself for who I am.

One of the first meetings I attended I heard, "keep coming back, we will love you until you love yourself". That statement stuck me. I been sober and happy for over year now.

This program has taught me how to live life. I would get mad at the drop of a hat, drink over the good and the bad, which over time, what I thought was my best friend became my worst enemy. Although successful at work receiving great reviews and rewarded financially, my family paid dearly on the weekends. Staying sober and thinking clearly has allowed me to mend those relationships.

I keep my life simple today. I've found a meeting for which I'm the cookie guy (thanks to wife) and I keep track of the finances, doing what ever is asked of me.

I hope I can give back as much as has been given to me.


abandond by my counceller, now left between a rock and a wet place why? AM I SO BAD?

Joined: 2013-01-22
Am I so Bad

I heard a wonderful person say, 'we're not bad people trying to get good. We're sick people trying to get better.' Try to find some love for yourself. You're worth it!

RE: Am I so Bad

We are not bad people tiring to get GOOD we are sick people tiring to get well and the 3 pertinent ideas of A.A are simple and clear. Take a closer look

RE-Am I so bad?

Bad has nothing to do with it. If you have alcohol dependence then you have a brain disorder and some find AA helpful. Sins or lack of morals does not cause addiction. They are toxic run-offs from overuse. If you "just feel" like a bad person-sure thats normal. Sometimes people abuse alcohol without being an alcoholic because of untreated mental health issues and many self-medicate with alcohol. Seeking professional help would be a good start. Attending a few meetings and listening to people share their experience is another. Remember-suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

...is a desire to stop judging others

There is a young Irish kid in our group that has never had a drop of alcohol but, he claims to be an alcoholic because it runs in his family and it’s in his genes. “I don’t have to drink alcohol to prove I am an alcoholic, just look at my family” His father, older siblings, uncles and cousins all have the disease. I guess he is a member if he says he is but, I thought the only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. How can he be a member if he hasn’t touched a drop of alcohol to get a desire to stop drinking in the first place? Yea, I know it’s my problem, something I need to look at and I’m reminded by my sponsor to keep an open mind nonetheless, it’s still challenging for me to sit through a meeting and have this kid preach to us about alcoholism. Once I hollered out, “Hey, why don’t you just go out and get drunk and then come back and talk to us” This was a selfish thing to say forgetting the newcomers in the room are watching. I drank for 25 years and spent many days in hospitals, jails and treatment centers and this kid only has factual information about alcoholism spoon fed to him in the crib. My sponsor suggests I should consider this kid my best friend. I really don’t see that happening anytime soon.

Joined: 2013-01-18
Irish kid

Lay-off the kid!I've got people I don't want a drunken kid running over on the sidewalk.Staying away from one d-'d drink for one d-'d day is as good a description of the 3rd.tradition as any.There is no shortage of mean drunks in AA.And we wonder why we aren't attracting more members.Also,my experience is that the best way to kill a drunk in AA is to get between him and his sponsor.

Judging other's???

"Love & Tolerance" DOES NOT translate into becoming outright stupid!Your perceptions & uncomfortability with this young fella are quite normal. Alanon is where he belongs if he's so concerned about the affects of alcoholism in his life. How would Alanon member's feel about someone coming to mtg.'s spouting off when they've never, ever had a "Qualifier" in their life?. In my 40 yrs. of AA membership, I've yet to hear of an "Honorary AA member". It's nonsense! And frankly I'm concerned for much of the nonsense that's permitted to float in AA these days. This person should not be allowed to attend closed mtg.'s in AA. The welfare of the group comes first with the welfare of the individual a close second. The group members have a right & a responsibility to the group & those in attendance to uphold the traditions (anonymity)& the group guidelines. This fella sounds like "problems other than alcohol" & people in AA gotta get it through their head that we cannot be all things to all people. It's an ego trip to think otherwise. And that is not mean, it's simply true! We are simply not set up for some folks. This arguement that people go to immediately about not driving the new person out, has become a cheap emotionally charged weapon to hamstring AA member's from being AA member's. I was a newcomer. I've been witnessing mewcomer's for 40 yrs. I didn't need anyone to give me a resentment or a reason to leave or stop going to mtg.'s. I could find those all by myself without any help from anyone or facts to base them on. Until I was ready the teacher simply would'nt appear. To this day, I would go to hell to help the alcoholic. But if they want to stay there, I'm leavin. Let's talk about Love & Tolerance. Regardless of what you may think about religion or religious figures, I would think that most would agree that the Pope knows something about Love, Tolerance & Forgiveness. The last Pope was almost assassinated. That Pope spent 5 hrs. in his assailants cell Loving him & Forging him. Now I believe that he forgave him as do most others. But I can garantee you that he did not have that assasin up to the Vatican on Fri. or Sat. nite for dinner nor did they go for long strolls together thru the local malls. People don't end up in AA because of their great diplomatic skills. We carry the message as best we can with what we've got. If you're gonna be critical of how another member does that & you want to expose you're AA super hero power's, at least be honest about your motives & correct in the delivery of your message.

desire to stop preaching

Why would anyone want to join AA if they do not have a problem with drinking? Might encourage him to answer the two questions found on page 44 in our beloved Big Book, also kind of hard to share experience when having none, my sympathies friend. Your sponsor has a point; love and tolerance is our code, that is tough sometimes. Pray for the young fellow and try to mean, it is what my sponsor would tell me to do. Might try it. Let us know how it works out. AA Love M.

Joined: 2013-01-06
desire to stop judging others

That's a difficult one. If the guy is an alcoholic I would hate to be the person who drives him away and potentially signs the guy's death warrant (even if it's years down the line before tragedy strikes). I know step 1 in the twelve steps and traditions book talks about raising the bottom. It also mentions AA being joined by potential alcoholics. The other thing is most AAs I know including me did not have the membership requirement; by that I mean I did not want to stop , I wanted to carry on without the consequences (not possible, for an alcoholic !). I guess he has a desire not to start , or is he just in denial and not being truthful about never having had a drink. If he really isn't an alkie then in time he will go (I cant see anyone without the problem, doing steps etc). I wonder if being a 'kid' he is unclear and needs AL ANON and not AA. In the end the only answer is between him and his higher power. Not an easy one is it.

young irish kid

Ought not be allowed in closed meetings. Ought not be
allowed to participate in open meetings. Either way,
he will not be around meetings for long. This
"problem" will solve itself, in my opinion. Manny Q.

Irish kid

I'm sure you are right, problems seem to solve themselves. In my opinion some problems still need a little push for the good of the group. I know what a idiot a Irish kid can be since I am 100% Irish and was one. Maybe I still am, but now I'm 63. God help me! It's always been said around here that AA's vote with their feet.

vote with their feet

It is time for our membership leaders to stick around
and address issues and concerns, instead of walking away.
Some problems solve themselves, some take a lot of hard
work. Manny Q.

Problems solve themselves!!!

Here is my opinion. Problems do not solve them selves. I apply the AA principles to my my life one day at a time. I then experience the 12 promises on page 83 of the Big Book. As a young member in Ireland I heard the following nugget of wisdom, "THERE ARE NO MEDALS FOR YESTERDAY'S SOBRIETY! THERE IS NO GRADUATION DAY IN AA. WE HAVE GOT JUST THIS DAY. THIS SECOND IS ALL I HAVE IN WHICH TO LIVE. That is for me a consoling truth. God bless ye all.

working my own program

I have enough trouble working my own program without trying to figure out how others should works theirs, or whether they really need to be in AA at all. In retrospect, I wish I had come into AA before I ever started drinking, as it would have saved me and others from a lot of misery, but the generations before me had a great network of enabling set up such that the impact of the disease was well-hidden from those outside the family as well as many inside.

Joined: 2012-01-18
Re: is a desire to stop judging others

Based on that reasoning, I'm not an alcoholic, because my brother and two sisters weren't alcoholics.
My opinion? Keep speaking out about know-nothings trying to tell alcoholics how to stay sober. We get enough of their steer manure from the treatment industry.
I'd also think about getting a new sponsor, one who is familiar with our Traditions. It's bad enough when the group allows that sort of trash, but to say it's your problem is a downright lie.

Re: is a desire to stop judging others

Thanks for your thoughts. I don't want to be a controversial figure in my group but, I just can't accept this. As you suggested, I ended my relationship with my sponsor and hope to find another soon as well as a new group. I know I was a jerk for speaking out but, my heart is not going to budge on that issue at this time.

Thank G.O.D for alcoholics

Thank G.O.D for alcoholics anonymous I'm grateful for my recovery and I know A.A does not need me but I need A.A

jerk, not!

We do not wish to engage in any controversy. That means
public controversy. We ought to avoid controversy at
the meeting itself. But the second tradition is built
on differences of opinions and certainly controversy.
Bill W. called them squabbles, and hopefully we will
always have them. We have a common goal: to make A.A.
as effective as possible. We do not all agree on how
best to do that. On second thought, maybe you are a
jerk for walking away from the group, instead of trying
to repair a fixable problem. As far as the change of sponsors, I firmly believe that today's concept of
"sponsor" ought to be deleted from our A.A. vocabulary.
If we do that then the real sponsor or mentor will
reappear. ANONYMOUS

Bad Advice -Medication

A member of our group was struggling with depression. After three years he finally got professional help. Members of our group were against him taking medication. They said he was depressed because he wasn't working the steps hard enough and that he wasn't being honest with his higher power. They also said he wasn't really sober and had a cheaters sobriety. People treated him as a "loser." I was against this and encouraged him to listen to the doctors. I reminded people at a group conscious that it is not appropriate to give medical advice. I believe people who are against taking medication are the people who need it the most. It is common knowledge that mental illness is very common with alcoholics. Just working the steps and praying does not work for everyone. So to cut to the quick, he started taking medication as prescribed and his life turned around. Unfortunately, members of our group kept working on him until they convinced him to stop taking the medication. As one would guess where this is leading to, he blew his brains out. I was the only member of our group to attend the funeral service. This is not the first time it has happened in my group. I have two questions; "How perfect does one have to work the steps and pray to have their higher power cure them of mental illness? Is sobriety only rewarded to those members that are perfect?"

Joined: 2012-09-19

I take strong exception to anyone telling another person what medication they can and cannot take. As a health professional in AA I have a seen many who have both an addiction to alcohol and major depression requiring medication. A good friend of mine who is now sober for 30 years in AA is an example of this. He works a great program, as evidenced by his continued sobriety, AND has had lifelong depression often requiring medication. He knows that he cannot live a healthy, joyful live without medical treatment because he has tried. No amount of good AA took away his depression even at 25 years sober.
Depression and other mental illnesses exist separately from alcoholism. Sure it can take a variable amount of time during the first months/years of sobriety for the effects of alcohol to clear from the brain but once they do we all have periods of happiness. People with depression do not have this happiness and they are at risk for suicide if left untreated.

re: alcoholism and other medications

You need to find a different group. There is a pamphlet on the aa.org website that covers this topic. Anyone telling another member what medications they should or should not be taking is a danger to others. I am sorry, but bipolar disorder does not resolve itself through prayer any more than hypertension, diabetes, and hepatitus do.

re: alcoholism and other medications

To the previous posts...Thanks for all the support. I've left the group and a good men's discussion meeting was recommended. I was told the members of the group do not say stupid things about medication and doctors. He also mentioned that the founder of AA struggled with depression throughout his recovery and tried various things to relieve the pain which is seldom acknowledged or talked about.
If the guy in my group who ended his life would of known that about the founder it could of made a difference and maybe he would of not ended his life. Shawn R.


Yes Bill did suffer from depression a long time he overcame his by practicing the 11th step he found out that he was wanting to be at the top of the heap or he would sank to the bottom of the heap when he didn't get what he wanted his solution was to quit playing God you can't rely on God and defy him at the same time, you can find this in the book Pass it on a story of Bill W.'s life.


It is common knowledge Bill W. was not a saint. One does not have to be a saint to start a spiritual program. We like to think our fearless leader was angelic; perhaps this awareness might comfort us. However, if anyone was a saint it would be Lois is faithful wife who endured much embarrassment and humiliation. Bill suffered from depressions, rage, a large ego and indiscretions with women while married. Bill could not give up his nicotine addiction. His chain smoking led him to emphysema inside an oxygen tank where he kept smoking and finally he lay dying screaming uncontrollably for a drink as documented by the nursing staff. Despite these imperfections, I find a man I admire much. He was an ordinary man who sincerely cared for the suffering alcoholic throughout his life. He never quit but kept searching. He even experimented with LSD and niacin in order to find a cure. Today, if Bill were still alive he would be working with doctors and medical scientists to find the correct healing agent for alcoholism. Bill was human and in his humanness I’ve grown to appreciate him. I’ve learned to accept myself for not being perfect. Knowing he was flawed helped me to forgive my own unsatisfactory behavior. It relieves me to think he was a not a “god” but an ordinary human being like me who shared the same struggles in sobriety with character defects as I such as, temptation, fear, desire, and jealousy. If Bill stayed sober knowing he was deficient in character then so can I one day at a time.

RE: re-depression

Thanks for this discription of our co-founder. I
believe it to be accurate, although that belief was a
long time coming for me. Bill W. was relieved from
that obsession and compulsion by a spiritual awakening.
He finally found a way (method, technique, gadget)
to pass that solution to other suffering alcoholics.
What worked with others, was simply talking about his
own experience with an attitude of humility and weakness.
Initially Bill's attempts to help others was what Bill
called spectacularly unsuccessful. For six months Bill
used what I call the "How it Works" approach. That
approach did not work, and is not working for us today.
Bill was very much just another man, certainly not
a saint. (we are not saints). But he was determined that
a workable solution to alcoholism would not be lost.
Bill left everything we need to know to keep this solution
alive. Although my generation has pushed the solution
aside, it is still written in our simple history. Bill
left it for us, despite his own imperfections. In a nutshell
it can still be found in the IDEA left to us by Bill
and Dr Silkworth. Many thanks for the message. ANONYMOUS

Joined: 2012-05-30

Please post were u found the story of bill w screaming for booze

Re-please post were u found the story of Bill

I suggest doing some homework. There is a thing called the Internet.
Many of Bills low lights are common knowledge at this juncture in AA's history but, his high lights gave us AA and me a way out into a new life.

Joined: 2013-01-06
Surviving AA - Food For Thought

Sometimes I get the odd call, or someone will share about how they have had enough of AA (often after many years sobriety) and my response is normally to share my experience and not resort to a quick dismissive remark about them being sick, quite often they are well and on the receiving end of a 'sick' meeting. I remember my sponsor saying that AA was not a fellowship of the well but there were well people in AA. When you live in a major metropolis, such as London, whilst there is no shortage of meetings (hundreds per week) and members, you are going to find the a range of sobriety and a few ( I stress a few) meetings which test your tolerance. Often the traditions have been forgotten at such meetings. A few examples, a speaker meeting where the chair shared about their OCD and all shared back about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (the cause of their alcoholism) maybe I should have said something but walked away justifying to myself it wasn't my home home group. There are those who think they are experts in medicine and try and advise others on health and medication (dangerous and arrogant). At a speaker meeting this week, the speaker shared how he did not suffer from fears , had no resentments and talked at the group, turned out he had been drinking the day before and the group secretary picked him at the last minute not knowing this (the speaker needed help as a suffering alcoholic not an opportunity to take the chair at the meeting).

So AA is just like real life there are going a be few disappointments and answer for me is not to walk away but to share with another long term member for their take on the meeting as it could be just me being over sensitive or expecting every meeting to be as I would like it to be.

The answer is to keep coming back and mention the Traditions when it helps. Also for me to watch out for the old perfectionism streak as in my 30 years plus continuous sobriety I would guess I have been to about 5000 meetings of which I would say about less than 50 have been wacky, this means 99% have been good, sober, and left me walking away feeling good about life and recovery. Sadly some will see a 'bad' meeting as a reason not to return and no longer see the need to pass on the gift they have been given. So part of my recovery today is accepting that sobriety is sometimes surviving AA as well , focusing on the good and seeing the value of the Traditions more and more.

Joined: 2011-11-04
Surviving AA-Food for Thought

From what I have been told from “old Timers” such as your –self, with 30 years Plus sobriety, I live In the part of the USA where AA traditions are adhered to at meetings, meaning; members don’t go off on tangents about medical issues associated with alcoholism such as, OCD or bipolar, or how when they drank they did drugs and other things and talk about them instead of Alcohol. Because If they do they are reminded that they are in an AA meeting.

With that said, this part of the country also realizes that (or the people that have been through a detox), you are DULE- Diagnosed, 80% of Alcoholics also suffer from mental Illness, so it wouldn’t be uncommon for you to hear that in any AA meeting, just not as a main topic and any group conesus can stop the sharing of such a topic. The confusing thing to me is, someone 30years PLUS sober, should know this or should at least have the serenity to let it go.

Wake-Up Call-Stagnant in AA

I remember my early AA day’s hearing a lot of God talk. It didn’t offend me because I believed in God. I grew up in the church and was not threatened by prayer or miracles. I often looked down upon atheists and agnostics and considered them troublemakers. They were saying things about AA I didn’t want to hear. AA at the time to me was a simple program of god, steps and miracles. Why don’t they go somewhere else? When I started to recover and my brain cleared up I was in a more generous position to listen. They were not troublemakers at all but, brothers and sisters with legitimate concerns about the fellowship. These members actually loved the fellowship more than I! In social groups, sometimes it’s the edge people or minorities who hold the rope that can free the majority from the dogmatic quicksand it is sinking in and point it to a higher place. One day, I was listening to this atheist elder in our group share. He was more passionate about recovery and AA than I was because I think he had to fight for everything. He had a stronger grasp on spirituality and a better sense of the world. The truth hurt. It was a wake-up call. In my AA comforts, I actually was not growing at all. I realized I was hiding behind the language of recovery but not living it. I could razzle-dazzle people into thinking I knew it all but, I really didn’t. I studied the big book and steps and was miserable and here was a man that didn’t do any of that and was peaceful and friendly. I’m certainly not going to become an atheist of agnostic anytime soon, but I’ve learned to keep an open mind like the sign above our door. I’ve learned not to judge other members and treat everyone in the rooms with dignity and respect. Most importantly, I can’t have a “leave well-enough alone recovery.” I must continue to change as I march forward towards the grave.

My First Meeting

The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. Sounds easy enough…right? After walking through a cloud of cigarette smoke, I walked into a room and saw what appeared to be an assortment of nuts and empty seats. Then the meeting started. Some guy mumbled a bunch of rules that took forever. People were disinterested. It was a colossal bore. Then a person was instructed to start a discussion topic. He talked about God. The man seemed angry. He went on and on threatening new people like me to find God, work the steps or die. Then a person started talking about depression and the leader stopped her saying this is about alcoholism only. She got up and left. The next man called on paraphrased pages from a book as a few people nodded their heads. During the meeting, a young woman with the tightest outfit got up several times as many males gazes descended on her delightfully. And what these people all have in common is they are all talking in some weird coded language dipped in religious ideas. Then I thought, “I don’t belong here because I’m not a religious person” After the meeting a stranger walked up to me, “Hi I’m Dave, welcome, if you need anything let me know” This kindness disarmed me and I thought, “I’m not religious but, he seemed okay.” Then other aliens spoke. “Forget the god crap for now; just don’t pick up the first drink for one day. Can you do that at least?” “I lied, cheated and stole from the ones that loved me the most” “I wrecked my car in a blackout” “Once I picked up the first drink, I was off to the races” “I couldn’t even hold a wrench, my hands would shake so much.” “Woke up in jail with dried blood on my face” “She left me” “I forgot my kids at the mall” I remember identifying completely and it was comforting hearing laughter and meaningful conversation through it all. And that’s how it all started. My first impression of the actual meeting was not the greatest but afterwards the real human connection was pure gold.
Just Another Drunk

Just Another Drunk

You are one of the very few who stick around for the
real message. Most get up and leave, maybe not physically,
but mentally they are saying "let me out of here".
The way the A.A. message is most effectively
carried is by sharing our own experiences, not by a lot
of redundant reading and chanting. We fail hundreds of
thousands of suffering alcoholics every year by the
very things that you mentioned. Keep them in mind and
when the opportunity presents itself, voice your
concerns to the group. Alcoholics are dying while
we read, chant and pray. ANONYMOUS


Last year I tried AA but then quickly found excuses to stay away. And I drank. Now I want to go back...need to go back...but feel ashamed and fearful I will fall back on my "excuses".

Excuses!!! Please come back to AA for your own sake.

If you need AA it is there for you. You have a powerful experience that some other Alcoholic will listen to and identify with.

We all drank ourselves into AA membership!

Join the croud

Almost no one gets the "Introductory Offer". Thousands before you and likely millions after you will try AA, drink, try AA.
I hope you come to my meeting. I need you as much as you need us. Good luck.


as a drunk who needed 19 start overs to finally get it i totally understand. no one will look down on u when u walk back in. be honest and let your higher power take over. it does work but only if u work it.

julie b


Well, you made it here once. There's nothing stopping you from coming back. I came in the first time in '76 because i beat up the woman I was seeing at the time. Don't remember. Went to AA and didn't think it was for me. Stayed sober for 2 years and then caught up for lost time. This time I was jailed for a hit & run, leaving the scene, impaired. I get it now 27 years later. Its a disease. You can do it. We need you. We need each other in this program. Hope this helps. Good luck.

RE: excuses

Any alcoholic ought to be allowed to enter our A.A.
rooms without embarrassment, or shame. That is why we
deleted the sentence in our format asking if anyone
is just coming back. We ask if anyone is new who would
like to introduce themselves. We do not give out "coins",
and no one is made a spectacle.
Use every ounce of courage and return to A.A. We need
you just as much as you need us. ANONYMOUS

It seems you have a simple

It seems you have a simple decision to make... Do you want to continue living the misery your currently living or are you willing to change everything? I have the power to change if you just embrace it. Dont continue to hold yourself back...let yourself free to exprience a new way of life. Yes at first its hard...but just dont give up on yourself...and keep tryin

Power to change?

"I have the power to change if you just embrace it."
You must be God.
Why do we tell newcomers, and everyone else coming to
our rooms that they have to change everything? If an
alcoholic wants to get sober the only thing they must
do is to stop drinking. Other things will change as time
passes. New friends, new sober habits.
It may sound cute to say "the only thing you have to
change is "everything" and it usually brings a laugh.
Staying away from alcohol is all we ought to be encourging
any alcoholic, especially newcomers, to do. Manny Q.

No need to fear

Thank you for posting. It's only in our minds that we think people judge us harshly for relapsing. If someone in the meeting is truly living on a spiritual basis he/she will be more than happy to see you after a relapse. The best statistic in AA is that 100% of people who work the steps on a daily basis stay sober. That has been the case for me, I will pick up my 5 year chip on 3/1/12. Our disease wants us alone and it is so harmful, we are told in the AA big book to fearless and thorough from the very start. I still am a nervous person but I go to meetings anwyay and challenge myself to share even when I am scared. These past 5 years have been the best years of my life. Good luck and hope you find a sponsor! Its free!

Joined: 2012-01-18
Excuses vs Reasons

Untreated alcoholics can always find excuses to leave AA. When I was new I heard, I'm not like you because:
I never got a DUI.
I'm not divorced.
I still have a job.
I haven't been to jail.
I never wrecked my car.
Then some smart alec said, "Yet!" and shot down all the excuses.
So we come up with new ones:
I don't like to hold hands.
I don't want to believe in God.
I don't like to hear "How It Works."
I don't like the chanting.
I don't like the praying.
I don't like the focus on faults.
Not enough people hug me and shake my hand when I grace a meeting with my presence.
So groups appoint an official hugger and vote to stop holding hands, chanting, reading anything and praying, and the meetings focus on "How my day went today."
I guess the next excuse will be, There used to be something called Alcoholics Anonymous, it folded because everyone was too busy finding fault they lost sight of recovery.

RE: Excuses vs Reasons

Alcoholics, back in their caves, will be saying "what
a great thing A.A. could have been".
The Washingtonion Movement, very much like A.A. existed
for about ten years. One claim was 500,000 members before
it vanished.
Alcoholics Anonymous was effective for about four times
that, about 40 years. And we have about four times that
number of members.
A.A. today is like an eight cylinder engine running on
two cylinders. A.A. is barely alive, and could remain on life support for several more decades.
Reversing the blunders we have made in the past three
decades will be like turning back the tide. The greatest
obstacle is convincing today's membership that the tide
needs to be turned.
Evidence of our failure is our negative growth rate
over the past two decades. We have fewer members than
in 1992. The sad part is that we have a solution that
rarely fails. We have pushed that solution aside and
have substituted a TWELVE STEP PROGRAM which rarely works.
Our negative growth rate shows that the treatment
offered in today's A.A. is no more effective than no
treatment at all.
If A.A. folds it will be because of not correcting
the faults that we have found. ANONYMOUS

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