From the September 1957 magazine.

From the Grass Roots


I AM STILL DRY. I haven't had a drink now for five months, thank God and all of you in AA for the help you give me.

This time I was on my own when I left the ship and my AA shipmate, Paddy, to go home. All my fear problem came back to me on the train and I did not know what to do with myself. The only thing I could do was to pray to God for help and I got it. The thing that was worrying me was that I never took Step Five. . .so I went to a priest and admitted all my wrongs and I walked out a new man, thank God. But you can't go on without AA--you have to have it all the time. But about the train and boat journey--it took me seventeen hours to get home to Ireland. I met a fellow in the train and I kept talking to him all the way. I don't know what he thought of me but I had to talk to someone, and we talked about everything and anything, trying to keep my mind off myself. Then he asked me to go for a drink with him, and I did, and then he called for two beers and I told him I did not drink beer, only lemonade, and he said to me you must have loads of money and I said I wish I had and then told him I drank every penny I ever made and he could not get over it. I had to tell him all of my life story. As I said about the Fifth Step--if I did not take it when I did I would have hit the bottle again. It was one thing or another but thank God I went the right way.

-- John D.


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