From the April 1978 magazine.

A Desire to Stop Drinking

She couldn't say, "I am an alcoholic," but she did have

IN THE NEARLY sixteen years I have been in AA, I have often heard it said, with despair, that if a closed group wanted to reduce its size, the way to do it was to announce that there would be a study of the AA Traditions. People would stay away in droves, and those who did attend would be the ones who were really involved in the program and wanted to know more about how AA works.

I owe my life to God and the Third Tradition. When I called AA in 1960, I was still holding a job but had lost almost everything else. I was a sick woman physically, a wreck mentally, and a zero spiritually. I had moved from a fourteen-room house into a small efficiency apartment, alone for the first time and with no one to protect me from my alcoholic self. My drinking built up from drinking at night and living through the day until the next night, to drinking every night and around the clock on weekends. And so it was on a Monday morning that I called AA for help. It was the first time that I was unable to go to work.

-- E.P.

Alexandria, Virginia

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