From the March 1992 magazine.

Defeating Denial

When I started attending AA meetings, I introduced myself as an "addict," I hadn't had a drink in close to two years. After I had been in the program for three months, I began to take a hard look at my past and what I found was that when I started to use drugs, it was because I had reached the point in my drinking where I was extremely violent and unpredictable. My behavior scared the daylights out of me, so I switched to tranquilizers and marijuana. I usually went to sleep and became somewhat more predictable when intoxicated by these drugs.

When I started in recovery, I tried several different fellowships, but I found what I wanted and I get what I need in AA. In reading the Third Tradition, I'm extremely grateful that the early members of AA had enough insight to realize that we are dealing with a disease of denial--of our condition and of our feelings, to name just a couple of kinds of denial.

-- A. J.

Wichita, Kansas

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